thinking about nursing

[sophie22]

hello, well im not sure if this is meant to be here but this is the title that fit the most.

im so lost right now, i originally applied to do midwifery at university, but didnt get into those so applied for adult nursing as an in-direct route into midwifery. I lost hope of getting onto a course but now have been accepted at bournemouth uni and dont know wether to take it or not, i dont know if im cut out for it to be honest. i have applied for acupuncture in lincoln the uni i used to go to, i used to do media but decided i didnt want to do that so this is my last chance and i have to make the right choice. i do want to do midwifery i just dont want to have to go through what sounds like a hellish first year of nursing just to get to midwifery. im not great so far with people that act well weird, you know if someone isnt well and are maybe old they may make weird noises or be aggressive and i just dont know if im not like that now is it something youjust cope with when you have to? basically the first year sounds like you are a health care assistant and the whole reason i didnt apply for a job doing that is because no one likes sppon feeding patients, cleaning up bodily fluids and giving sponge baths. i just dont know how im going to cope and it sounds so full on with all the hours. but now im feeling pressured into this by my parents who are extactic i have a place and dont want me to waste an oppotunity. please can anyone tell me what to expect its really getting me down now?

my other options of lincoln is a good course but going back to lincoln i feel would be a step back not forward and i didnt really like lincoln as a place. and then there is york for acupuncture too but its a diploma not a degree and i would have to fund it myself however its weekends mostly so i could work to fund it and its nearby so i wouldnt reall have to move just commute. can anyone help me make some real decisions? im so lost!