Terrified to start RPN program

[Elysha10]

Hello everyone. This is my first post but I have been reading a lot of different discussions on here. I know this has been put out there once or twice before but I figured since I'm feeling this way it's easiest to write it. *its a bit long-sorry*

So I decided last year that I was going to get my pre req's up to apply for the RPN program, I had went this path before but didn't try, I was young and not ready to give it my all. A couple years ago I got sad around September when everyone started school and it started to happen last summer as well so I looked at some options for myself. Fanshawe offered general arts and science online this year so I decided to jump on the chance because I couldn't continue to wonder what if. I had an amazing semester and applied to the RPN program at both Fanshawe campus and was accepted. I was and still am excited about what I have accomplished this far. The problem I seem to be facing now is im struggeling a bit with some content I'm learning and I'm starting to second guess myself. I'm worried I won't be able to absorb the intense amount in nursing if im struggling with some content from an easier program, I'm also terrified I won't cut it. I'm shy and hate feeling stupid in front of people. I was the kid that never answered questions in class for the fear I was wrong even if I knew I was 100% correct, my heart starts racing and I feel like everyone is looking at me like I'm an idiot I know stimulation labs and clinics are to help you practice and that everyone makes mistakes but I'm just so terrified. I do want this but I just don't know if I can do it and if I should fork out all this money to fail. My husband is super supportive but it's hard to explain to him sometimes. I also don't have the best track record with school and I don't want to disapoint everyone because they are all so proud. I see how helpful everyone is on here so I thought I would give this a shot.

Sorry it's so long