screwed up career, help!

[stargazer88]

I have been an RN for almost 12 years. That said, I've screwed up my career and don't know how to get it back. Need help please..

I worked 5 years in acute care. I was training in ER doing great. Had a baby. Went to work in a local nursing home as 12 hour shifts were too long. I meant it to be temporary but stayed 5 years. I let all my certifications lapse. I didn't save a dime as I only worked enough to have spending money. I also was known as a trouble maker by mgmt . I questioned a lot and got angry about the kind of care given (or NOT given). I had very good rapport with patients families and co-workers.

Next I went to work in a rehab facilty. I did fine and kept my mouth shut. They fired people left and right. One mistake, you're out. In the year I was there 22 workers were fired. I found out I needed a malignant tumor removed, told my employer. Took 2 weeks off, came back. They "promoted" me to a mgmt position. A week later I was fired for "not getting it"

They cancelled my medical insurance. and I was (am depressed)

I went to work for an agency that wouldn't pay me for hours worked.

I thought I had landed a dream job in the hospital, but then they told me I'm too far out of school, and the person who had hired me was no longer there, and had no business hiring me. "go back to school and refresh your med/surg skills they told me.

I need a job, my self confidence is shot. There is an agency that is interested but when I looked at the application forms I see they send a form to former employers to evaluate me. I've only had the 4 jobs and what to do about references.

I have very good assessment skills, graduated at the top of my class. I've learned to keep my emotions in check. I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure.

[stargazer88]

I have been an RN for almost 12 years. That said, I've screwed up my career and don't know how to get it back. Need help please..

I worked 5 years in acute care. I was training in ER doing great. Had a baby. Went to work in a local nursing home as 12 hour shifts were too long. I meant it to be temporary but stayed 5 years. I let all my certifications lapse. I didn't save a dime as I only worked enough to have spending money. I also was known as a trouble maker by mgmt . I questioned a lot and got angry about the kind of care given (or NOT given). I had very good rapport with patients families and co-workers.

Next I went to work in a rehab facilty. I did fine and kept my mouth shut. They fired people left and right. One mistake, you're out. In the year I was there 22 workers were fired. I found out I needed a malignant tumor removed, told my employer. Took 2 weeks off, came back. They "promoted" me to a mgmt position. A week later I was fired for "not getting it"

They cancelled my medical insurance. and I was (am depressed)

I went to work for an agency that wouldn't pay me for hours worked.

I thought I had landed a dream job in the hospital, but then they told me I'm too far out of school, and the person who had hired me was no longer there, and had no business hiring me. "go back to school and refresh your med/surg skills they told me.

I need a job, my self confidence is shot. There is an agency that is interested but when I looked at the application forms I see they send a form to former employers to evaluate me. I've only had the 4 jobs and what to do about references.

I have very good assessment skills, graduated at the top of my class. I've learned to keep my emotions in check. I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure.

Editors of AN, could you please delete this post.

Thanks