Questioning my decision. Where do I go from here?

[FloridaRN93]

Hi, I graduated last May (2021) with my RN degree and completed my BSN degree this past August. In September of last year, I accepted a job offer in a cardiology clinic - outpatient nursing. I worked as a medical assistant while in nursing school so this was easy for me. I also had my first baby in May 2021, right when I finished nursing school, and my husband is a firefighter who does 24 hours on/48 hours off, so the M-F, weekends and holidays off was easier for me with sending my daughter to daycare. 
I left that job to go to a local hospital nurse residency program, but left it after a couple of months due to being overwhelmed and the schedule not being ideal during training. I came back to the clinic setting. 
I had been doing a lot of soul searching and decided to reach back out to the director of the floor I was on at the hospital and ended up having a meeting with the nursing VP of the hospital saying why I wanted my job back. The job pays almost $10 more than the clinic job; I ended up getting a job offer. 

well, I had put in my notice at my current clinic job but thought I wanted to stay there (my coworkers are like family and the job is easy with good hours). In the moment of fearing missing the job, I told my coworkers I would stay and not take the hospital job back. Well, I really am regretting this decision but am due to start this new job in a couple weeks. What would you all do or say in this position? I’m truly at a loss. I do want to be a nurse practitioner eventually. Thank you! 

[RNandAllTheThings]

Choose you. Forget about all the noise. Objectively , what will be best for your mental, financial, and career path. Chose an area that will allow you to thrive and and weigh the pros and cons. Does the schedule work? Is there growth? Are you burning bridges (which again—choose YOU). Did you ask to go back to the location because it was 10 dollars more or were there more benefits? There are no wrong answers, only what makes sense for you and your life. Your a nurse and even with how insane it is out here, you have choices ?