Please Help "New Grad" Job

[Charlotte2002]

Hey everyone! I am a new graduate nurse(passed my NCLEX in July) who lives outside Atlanta GA. I am in a bit of a situation and I'd love some advice. I am going directly back to school for my FNP masters(starting in a few weeks) and want to get some nursing experience while in grad school. The reason I'm going directly back to school is my uncle says he will pay for my tuition but only up until he retires, and he retires in about 2 years. I was recommended by one of the graduate professors to a home health agency because I have a good relationship with him and he knows I'm a diligent student. No hospital in my area hires new grads part time so I didn't have many job options. The owner assured me in my interview that I would be trained and that I would get straight forward patients since I have no inpatient experience. Well, I've been on the job for a few weeks now and neither is coming true. The owner asked me to go to a  patient that needed trach care and IV antibiotics after having been in the ICU for a week from a bad pneumonia infection. The family's support system isn't really there and this patient definitely isn't very stable(in my opinion with limited nursing experience). He still uses humidified oxygen through his trach at night and is frequently out of breath.

Putting this patient's medical situation aside, the agency owner fully intended to send me to see this patient alone after having shadowed another nurse for their start of care on Friday. I had to stand up for myself and say no, I don't feel safe doing this alone, especially the trach care on a patient who actively needs it and doesn't have a support system. I've only gone on about a dozen shadowing appointments and only 1 had trach care and 3 IV infusions. He wasn't even sorry for this, and seemed upset when I told him no 😅

This is on top of a lack of guidance around charting. As we know nursing school doesn't teach charting a lot, so I don't really know what I'm doing. The EMR training didn't have guidance on defensive documentation or doing it well, just like how actually operate the website to do it. The owner promised me feedback on my charting(I am doing the charting for the nurses I shadow them then they sign off) but hasn't given it to me. 

Overall, I feel like the training has been lackluster and I feel the owner doesn't have my confidence or quality of care top of mind when running the agency. My emotions are telling me to leave, and all my family and boyfriend are telling me too, but I feel stuck. If I leave I feel this would affect my relationship with the grad professor, who I will unfortunately have to take classes from. I also am afraid of not getting taken seriously or being disrespected in grad school because of my lack of experience. 😫

My questions are:

What would you do in this situation?

Will I still be taken seriously in grad school without working as a nurse? I wouldn't count this as experience if I quit since I've only been employed a few weeks. I fully intend to work as a nurse after graduating to build my experience before jumping over to NP, but as I explained I have a blessing in my uncle paying my tuition and want to take advantage of it.

Thank you all for your time in reading this. My nursing career is definitely off to a rocky start. 😢