Lost, what should be the next step?

[BeezRN]

Hi everyone,

I'm not really sure where this post belongs but since I'm a CNA (certified in July) I decided to post it here. I'm feeling extremely disappointed and defeated to say the least. I've had to change my plans several times because of setting goals way too high for my capabilities I'm sad to say. I went from wanting to get into UIC or Rush's accelerated BSN program to now doubting even my community colleges would accept my low grades

To make the story short: After high school I went to a University (doesnt have a nursing program) because for some reason my parents (being immigrants and not knowing better maybe) looked down at community colleges. I've always been interested in nursing but wasn't sure how to make it happen but my 2nd yr in university I decided that my goal was to become a nurse. I decided to do my science pre-reqs (endless list since i was looking at UIC and Rush at the time) at my school and obtain a bachelors degree in biology. THe plan was that I'd have a 4.0 GPA and get accepted at the schools I wanted to (I'm such a dreamer). This past summer I took my CNA course to get an idea of what it would truly be like to be a nurse and that was about the only thing that went as planned this year.

I was an A/B student some semesters and others I would completely blow it, like this semester. In my gen eds I have 2 C's, but what lowered my GPA the most was my math. It took me 3 times to finally pass it! meanwhile I got an F first, then a D, then a B! Why didn't I drop it you may ask, well because I was too shy at the time and thought my parents would kill me if I dropped ANY class. In General Biology I i got my first C and then it was followed by General chemistry II with a C as well. I thought ok well I got C's but I'll get straight A's from now on! But guess what! I didn't! This semester I BLEW IT! I failed both of my science courses with an F. They were cell biology and organic chemistry I. I didn't drop them because I thought I would magically improve my grade but of course it didn't happen. Now I'm stuck with a 2.8 GPA. I knew I would end up failing those classes but figured I'd just retake them and that it would be ok. But reality is setting it (it does every once in a while) and I've realized that this is my 3rd year and i have a crappy GPA and not that many opportunities to raise it. I wish I would've just went to my community college where they offer those medical terminology and anatomy I & II classes that my school doesn't offer.

I feel stuck! I've been feeling this for a while but kept adjusting my plans but now I feel like I've completely fudged myself for life. I'm evening thinking of dropping out of my school and going to my community college to take those anatomy courses and other pre-reqs I need for any nursing course. I'm seriously looking at to take the next step after CNA which is LPN. I feel that is my best bet at the moment but then again I feel they'll take one look at my crappy grades and say NO! I feel like I've fallen so low. I have no one to blame for myself but I don't know what is my best option for now. I feel like I am drowning at my school because I have so many more science courses I have to take for a biology degree that will get me no where and whats the point of graduating if i can't get in anywhere with my horrible grades. I've registered for this spring semester at my school but now I'm feeling like its pointless. My best bet I think is to take the anatomy classes at a community school but I think they might be filled up by now since the new semester starts in less than a month. I was hoping to get into the june admissions for lpn at wilbur wright college here in Chicago but that is probably me just dreaming the impossible.

If any one happens to read this from Chicago I'm interested in wright college and would like to know how long their waiting list is. Yes I've read other posts asking the same but they're mostly from 09'.

Sorry I know its long but I just feel I had to vent some way thanks if you read it all or just skim through it. I want to know I wasnt the only one in this predicament and any:idea: ideas would be appreciated. Sorry for many typos too

thanks you all :redpinkhe

[fuzzywuzzy, CNA]

You'll get there eventually. It may take a really long time, but you will. I can kind of relate- I had no idea what i wanted to do and didn't know what i was taking classes for, so I didn't take any of the right pre-reqs and pretty much have to start over. Even now, I'm thinking of changing my plan! My grades are really good, but it's taking me forever to get through school because I have to work full time and take night classes, which are not always available. If I had known what I was doing at 18 I could have lived at home, worked part time, and just gotten the school thing over with. All you can do in a situation like this is be patient.

I would start over at the community college. The classes you already took should still count, and at least it will be cheaper. If you try to the ADN program (rather than a BSN) there will probably be a waiting list, but there's no point in struggling to get a biology degree that you don't actually need in order to be a nurse.