Is Mother/Baby/Pediatric Nursing for Me? - Afraid to fail.

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I'm considering going to school for some kind of medical end with children or babies or Maternity maybe even. Unfortunately I don't have much knowledge of what is available to me job wise &if any of out would really be a good fit.. Any&All information will be helpful :)

Recently I became a Mother for the first time. Never have i had a more beautiful, wonderful experience. I wish I could be a Stay at Home Mommy for ever but were all not as fortunate.

Neonatal nursing is a career that crossed my mind for a few years now but being too emotional & dedicating my life to work (hours working - post education) makes me feel like it would be a bad choice.

Now that I'm a Mommy I have so much fear of failing.

I fear that I'll fail at school, almost 5 yrs out of high school & horrible memory unless it is a repetitive task (how could I possibly remember every medical information for a test let alone a huge test down the line & then onto my career).

I fear that I won't be able to be there for my daughter growing up or when she needs me. When I think of nursing I think long hours & exhausting days. As a single parent I don't want to work 12 hrs &then be exhausted on my days off.

My emotions went out the haywire & anything child related especially makes me a sap - how could I face people?

What if I'm not good enough or go to school & waste my time? I went to school for Phlebotomy, the procedures were easy but I hadtrouble retaining information esp after the test since we never used it during clinicals. I dropped out soon after because I made much more in a warehouse but that's obviously not where I want to be in 10 years

I just feel so lost &stuck in a rut, I considered teaching pre k or going into daycare since I always loved kids but I feel like nursing will be better support to help me move out of grandmoms house & support my daughter on our own with a reliable job.

If I go to school & I realize that is what I truly want to do I'm not afraid to get more education to maybe become a nurse practitioner or tbh I don't even know what I could be that will be well suited.