Hospital politics

[Phaithylu]

I am having trouble dealing with hospital politics. I have been a nurse since 2005. in that time I have worked for 3 hospitals full time. It seems my managers are always changing, and there is always tension in the air. I have been a manager on interim basis once and I absolutely loathed the politics of it all. Mid management was a rude awakening for me. I experienced the hands tied behind your back helplessness of trying to produce positive results for two sides that have vastly different ideas of what healthcare should be. I felt I was stuck in the middle as an administrative puppet delivering fist blows to the belly of colleagues with a smile while listening to the manipulative agendas of the politically connected. Everytime I am asked to do something in a leadership role I feel used. I just want to take care of my patients. But I feel like people are always asking me to do pointless extra stuff like committees that will eventually be pointless and a waste of time, or whatever a higher up's pet project is at the moment. The thing is, I know they are not really asking. When I don't comply annoying or fishy things happen to me. Sick of it. not sure what to do.