Having trouble with second job as a new nurse

[Kelaaax3, ADN]

Hello, I have been a nurse for a little over a year now. I started on a med surg/hospice floor and left at 11 months. I was driving to the hospital 3 1/2 hours twice a week and it got to be too much with no work/life balance. We were also transitioning to a step down unit but we did not have the staff I feel to make it work and we’re very unorganized. Everyone on the unit was burnt out and many had left due to this. The money and set schedule was great but the drive was taking a toll on my car. I chose to make the long drive because I live in WV in a very small town with only one hospital and one stand up ER. The pay was also very very low at 23/hr. 
 

I made the switch to a hospice company naively accepting a weekend on call position. Everyone says I’m doing very well and they’re glad to have me. My boss is mostly nice, and my coworkers as well although I don’t see them often. However there are a lot of issues and I don’t think I can stay long term. We cover two counties. The first is fine, as all my emergency visits are 20-30 mins away or less. The other county is about an hour away. I am paid salary. The workload is tremendous because there is a high turnover rate. Sometimes I am so busy I don’t sleep in over 20 hours because it’s call after call. I also still do admissions, evals, deaths, and other emergency visits. My schedule is Friday 5pm-Monday 8am which I guess is pretty standard but when I get calls about admissions frequently and also evals it is very rough. However I love my patients very much and next month I will have been here for 3 months and I don’t want to give it up so soon but I am not happy. I hate feeling like I complain all the time, but being called out at all times during the early AM is not fun at all. I’m disappointed because I should have expected this much and I knew I would be called out at those times, I just didn’t think I would be called out for so many non emergency situations. 
 

I don’t want to be seen as a job hopper. I want to go somewhere that pays me well, still close to home so I can spend time with family and pets, and not feel so exhausted or anxious every time I get a call. It has been a very rough first year and has made me feel like I don’t want to be a nurse anymore but I love helping others. I don’t think I’ll even last until the end of next month at this point. During nursing school and high school I held a job at a pharmacy for 5 years and I just want to go somewhere where I’m comfortable and not overly stressed 24/7. I know I’m still new and that it might be better eventually but we have so many staff that don’t stay and other staff speaking up for nurses about the crazy hours and workload that is expected of us and I am already experiencing that and not sure what to do. 
 

I just got an apartment and I take care of my grandmother so I have to be close. The only other jobs that pay pretty well would be an hour and a half away and I’m not sure if I could deal with making that drive. I also just feel like I give up too easily but my body is already exhausted and I haven’t hit 3 months. I don’t want to constantly be depressed and always forced into picking up overtime after an extremely long weekend because we don’t have staff. I want to stay somewhere for two years at least and be happy for the most part. I know that all jobs will hold some stress and have it’s pros and cons but I’m just not sure what to do. I have thought about OR, psych inpatient for children, psych in general, and possibly ICU. I’m terrified of taking another job and ending up being miserable there like I am now. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you!