Hi all! This being my first post here, I'm not sure where to start so I'll just start with my current situation. I am currently a nursing student and will graduate next month. (Is it May already!? Wow.)
Anywho, I think I'm psyching myself out. I'm precepting now in a small (but busy!) ED with a great nurse. Now granted, I've only completed three days so far and I know there is a certain settling time required for any situation.. but I'm just- irritated with myself.
I'm totally willing to do anything I'm asked, and I know I'm a smart girl and can do most anything with a little guidance, but I think my problem is this:
1) I need a little "push" sometimes to boost my self confidence on performing certain procedures, especially those I'm doing for the first time alone, and
2) I think I also worry too much about "slowing down" the nurses I"m helping. Often times I'm noticing I hesitate to offer to take over a task for them because I feel like if I "mess up" or "miss something" along the way, then it'll just take more time for them to go back and fix it. (ie, I'm a bit slow/disorganized yet with paper charting such as during initial assessment as all hospitals I've been to have computer charting).
I feel like this sort of hesitation will make them think that I either don't want to help them, or just don't know how- neither is the case!!
There is really no specific reason for me to feel this way right out of the gate, as everyone I'm meeting and working with is super-nice and very helpful.. but they are also so quick with their tasks and great at what they do. I know I"m not expected to be at that level yet.. but sometimes when I'm working on something (in slow-mo compared to what they do, lol :spin
and they wisk in behind me and finish up what I'm doing, it makes me feel like I'm 'in the way," I guess.
Anyway, this is my whine for the day. Any guidance or sympathy to offer? As I said this was my first week there, so I'm likely just being hard on myself.. I do plan to talk about all of this to my nurse next time we work together, but I guess I'm just looking for some outside stories, aside from my friends in school.. a more anonymous thing, kwim?