Paranormaol experiences?

nursin-around · May 16, 2001

I just ran across this board and have to share my story. I had an extremely hectic night at the LTC facility I work for on the 2pm-10pm shift, and had coded an 87 year old lady who wasn't even my resident. I had 3 hospice patients of my own and was late giving an ativan injection to a COPD, CHF'er which was ordered routinely. I gave it and it bothered me all night at home, I'd tell myself that no he wasn't suffering he was still asleep when I went to give the shot, but my conscience would eat at me anyway as this man was dying. I was scheduled to work the next am, and upon arriving the night crew reported that this man had passed at 4 something am. My concience got even heavier. I was feeling guilty over what could not be helped when the residents call light went off. There was no family in the room, it did not come lose from the wall, and nothing was remotely close to the button. I think he was telling me it's OK he made it comfortably.

Barbara Rose · May 16, 2001

The closest I have ever come was when a patient told me he was going home on a weekend I was off. I tried to explain to him that since it was impossible for him to go home, and it was his anniversary that his wife was bringing in his dog for a special visit but that he could not go home. It told me goodbye, that we was going home. I decided that he was trying to tell me something and so I told him goodbye, he was a very special pt. to me. Anyway, I told his wife as well. She got the shivers as well. Saturday, she brought in his dog and all his family came in. He died Sunday evening on my usual shift. The staff told me that if I had been there they were sure I could have saved him. (that really made me feel guilty). Anyway, he knew he wouldn't see me again. I still have a tape of him before he got sick (he was a youth minister) preaching. It gives me chills, I cry each time I listen to it. Does that count?