Feeling so unappreciated and targeted, how can I make things better ?

[gloryfied]

Any one's insight and suggestions wil be much appreciated.

My CPC, pulled me aside this night early into my shift to talk to me about some changes that they nurse manager is putting into effect. ok. He then proceeds to add that he doesnt see me helping others much, i dont answer call bells much and that I was one of the weak links in helping others so he's been told. Then proceeded to tell me that he "thinks' I have been clocking in a minute to 2 minutes late lately, which confidently! i haven't.

1. I have always helped other nurses patients i just dont go braggin to the nurse right after of what I did, and when I do, they nod "ok. thanks". Personally i dont look for gratitude from anyone because im just doing a job. But to hear that made me upset and sad and unappreciated. The other nurses are all best friends, talk about their relationships with eachother and stuff so i think they will recognize eachothers efforts.

and Im very reserved, I dont brag, very quiet, and focused i just help if its needed. i am upset, but it will subside. I just would like to know how to let these people take notice of my helping without having to go to them and tell them "Hey I just did this for you. " Im a great nurse, but this really takes a kick at my confidence in this profession.

2. This CPC, he was a pastor. he's very calm and stuff but I cant help but think that he's shooting for my downfall. It seems like he always wants something to happen to call me to the side and warn me about it. He does it with a smile and with a "I really don't want anything bad to happen to you so please, work on it". Everyone drinks water and eat crackers, once in a while, im not sure if he's called the others out, which I think hes scared of them because they are fiesty women, im very young and small, and a mind my business type of person so i dont know if he feels like he can just do that with me or not but I feel like a major target, like hes always magnifying me. If the issue here is that I make myself a target by being seclusive, quiet and antisocial for my reasons being that this social group is awkward and they gossip then someone please give me an insight on how to be fully present but without joining in with the foolishness of gossip.

23. How can I communicate with this CPC without being aggressive. because myBP boils when he talks like he's an angel sent from God, but nit picks as if he wants you to fall but he'll pick you up. Im so uncomfortable around him, and I would like a way to deal with him without loosing it, but also withouth being passive.

Please and thanks

Gloryfied.

[Pedsmom]

I am RN in a very busy high stressed critical care top notch Pediatric Hospital working in the PACU. We get the worst of the worst Peds surgeries here and we have very high expectations for each other as a team. We do work very well together and are very helpful and supportive of each other for the most part. HOWEVER.. at the end of a long busy day when everyone is exhausted and has done their best for each and every crying child and devastated family, where is the personal feeling of job well done? After 40 years of nursing I am still doing the next right thing for all of my patients and everyone else in my life. I am still waiting for someone to say wow job well done, you are awesome at what you do and so appreciated. I know we all feel this in our lives but once in a while it just would feel good to have someone give you a Gold Star for the day!