Published Jun 16, 2016
ostomybag
1 Post
So pretty much, I started an LPN program that is 2 years. (straight from HS graduation) I finished my first semester which was really simple; did all the general types of assessments (respiratory, digestive, urinary, abdominal, etc.) and other science courses. This semester (2nd semester) however, i feel as if someone punched my so hard on my stomach. Seriously, we're already learning all the types of injections, ostomy & stoma care, HDCs, administering all sorts of medications, pressure ulcer care, tube feedings, catheters and a whole lot of other skills. Its only my second semester and I'm already learning this stuff? I don't know if that's normal or not. Plus to top it off i have pharmacology to worry about as well. I can't believe they expect me to learn all this stuff in a span of 2 months. I feel so burnt out and lost. I feel stupid around my classmates, because they're always blurting out answers, and im there just sitting wondering what the heck they're talking about. Oh and not to mention, I'm the only male in every single one of my classes. I'm feeling overwhelmed and worried about everything. I'm starting to have doubts and second thoughts about staying in nursing school. I'm not sure i even like it. I do want to help people. I want to learn to love them. I want that kind of bond. But it's all starting to fade away because of all of this information just piling up into my brain, which i feel like it just goes out of my head. I have a skills test next week (could be on HDC stuff, med admin, oxygenation, etc.), and i feel so unprepared. I'm trying my best to study everything but it's just so hard... I really don't know if this program is for me anymore. I'm not sure if I'm saying that because of my lack of motivation and stress. I feel like i'm the only one that doesn't know what their doing half the time. My clinicals (LTC) are in the fall, and I'm scared out of my mind. There's also a part of me that wants to stay and take on the challenge.