My training in 1999 was so horrible that it can only serve as a bad example - and maybe give someone else hope
(because I learned HD despite
First, I knew that machines and I don't get along - I had the hardest time figuring out the IV pumps at the hospital :uhoh21: (so why did I go into dialysis? Must have been temporary insanity, LOL). But I thought I had a nice preceptor who was going to be patient with me - wrong!
First, "SB" didn't want to precept anyone; held a grudge against the manager (who made her do it) for another reason; and guess who she let her frustrations out on?
I was belittled ("Are you ever going to figure this out?"), humiliated (in front of the whole staff, in a loud voice: "Will you ever
get recirculation?"), and given useless "advice" ("Just connect A to B to C to D; that's how I learned it!" Well, the A-B-C-D method has never worked for me, because I need to know why I'm doing what I'm doing. You can teach a monkey do connect A to B to C to D, and this doesn't mean he knows why. Neither would I... but "SB" never got that.
She even threatened me with an egg timer: "You have 15 minutes to get a patient on. If you can't get that done, I'll have to get an egg timer. That's what my
preceptor did." A-ha.
Did I quit? Did I run? Oh, I wanted to. But it wasn't an option at the time for various reasons. So I had to figure out a way to deal with it. And this is what worked for me, the-most-hopeless-ever-dialysis (RN) trainee:
. Yes, I looked up my company's P&P (which was great, it spelled everything out in great detail and gave the reason for each step - just what I needed!) and copied the steps onto 3X5 cards (machine set-up, priming, recirculation, and later patient care); I kept them in my pockets, and referred to them often. And guess what, despite (not because of) my "preceptor", I figured out those Cobe machines and came to really like them (later, I asked our machine tech lots of questions and became a machine expert)
I just gave you the worst possible scenario. I had it, and I survived (barely). And despite of the obstacles I came to love dialysis. And so will you, if you give it a chance. No matter what, you will figure out these machines and other procedures. One very strong positive in your favor: you're apparently in a very supportive environment (unlike mine was
), and this means a lot!
Good luck to you and all newbies.
P.S. If they'd had two different machines at the time, I doubt I would have made it...