CNA termination

[Mcpheeh]

Hi everyone so I need tons of advice because I just had the worst day of my life.

I'm a brand new CNA with little to no experience and just started working at a new facility. A lot of the other aides as well as nurses are rude and incompetent. I watch them break rules everyday, and violate many foundations pertaining to residents rights. I've been trying so hard for about 2 weeks now, but I'm still learning and need much more paractice. They decided this week to put me on the floor by myself so I have been behind on all my work and unable to take care of some residents because none of the CNA's would spot me while using a hoyer. Today, the LPN was very rude and condescending to me; and unfortunately I retaliated with a slick comment back. Although the nurse was wrong and shouldn't have spoken to me the way she did, I understand that I shouldn't have reacted either. I was terminated for insubordination and wasn't even given a chance to tell my side of the story. They had no cares in the world about the fact that they have employees mistreating and exploitating residents; but walked me out of the building as if I was some kind of animal. I wasn't loud, nor rude. I just said to the nurse in a calm tone that she was incompetent. O guess my question is, will this affect my license? I feel like such a failure for trying and still not getting it right. All I wanted was help, instead of attitudes for always asking for help. Will I be able to even get a job after this? I was only there for 2 weeks so would I even have to list it when going to another employer? I have NEVER in my life been terminated so I am taking this so hard. I feel like such a loser and that I was set up for failure. My intentions were not to say anything rude back to the nurse, she was just being so nasty. I asked her about multiple patients and almost always her answer was "I don't know." I read the Kardex like a bible, but it still didn't give me enough information to really know these people on a one on one basis. So I thought it would only be right to ask my LPN, but it seemed to always annoy her. I called to speak to the DON and she wouldn't even hear my case, all she said was "you were fired for insubordination." When I tried to tell her the story, she had no interest. I thought the least she could do was hear me out. She claimed she had several "witness statements," that I was loud and yelling; but it was the LPN that was loud and hostile. Be mindful, we were in the dementia unit. So these statements could have easily been misconstrued due to the mental state of some of them. The nurse shouted at me in front of all the patients "It's bad enough I have to do my job, and then do yours on top of it." I didn't even argue back, I just cried. That makes me feel like maybe that's what the residents meant when they said someone was yelling, but I can assure you it wasn't me. I keep trying this CNA position because I have the heart to do it, but now I'm not even sure if I even have a shot at being one again. I hope this incident didn't just ruin my career.