Clinical failure for something I couldn't help?

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I am in my second semester of an associates nursing program. My grades in lecture/class are ok, but I'm generally good in clinical. This semester we had new (to us) lecture AND clinical instructors and everything became much more accelerated very quickly. We had class the same days and clinical the same day with the same instructor every week first semester. This semester, we started clinical the first week and the expectations on everything including paperwork were way different. The first clinical day, I was marked late though I wasn't and there was no arguing it because I tried. I couldn't get one of the doors open even with the code to put my belongings in but I had been on the floor already and had to ask a classmate for the code again in case I had it wrong. I didn't, and was able to get it once I turned the knob the right way first. The instructor said that I should have already known the code...but I had. Then, same day, I didn't have one of my clinical papers and told her that I hadn't been able to get it since I had a major problem with my computer and couldn't access it, but was working on it. That day, I got 2 unsats.

fast forward a few weeks, I was scheduled in the OR rotation for the first time. Before the surgery, I walked in on staff speaking in a derogatory manner regarding students. I hate when this happens, but normally my instructor has been around. I get really anxious at this point already. I had been anxious already about the O.R. I feared this is where I would get queasy. My instructor wasn't on site. I did get nervous and a little woozy and while the staff was talking to each other, some of the conversation not entirely professional and didn't expect to be addressed and I was in a corner of the large OR room, I attempted to refocus and was praying a little as I did NOT want to pass out or anything, when I realized they were speaking to me. I said oh, I'm sorry, I didn't realize you were talking to me. I did tell one of the nurses closest to me that I had been praying a little because I had never been in the OR at all and didn't want to get sick or pass out. Later, the surgeon kept asking me to touch the part of the organ that was removed and was insistent. Again, I felt woozy and again, closed my eyes momentarily when (I thought) no one was looking because I did NOT want to handle this organ and I didn't even know if I was allowed to, I didn't know if it was going to pathology, etc. I pulled it back together and went over to the container where this was located and did poke at it a little, but was mostly uncomfortable.

I followed my patient to PACU, then to the floor like we were supposed to and came back down to the O.R. Again hearing staff badmouth students/school. Was sent back to PACU and helped them with a patient, getting a patient to the floor etc. Then my day was over.

Two days later I was called into the office and wasn't told by another clinical instructor that they had received an email from the O.R. Director that I was reported to have been "nodding off" or "sleeping" on a couple of instances. I explained that I had become a little woozy and did close my eyes on two occasions, BRIEFLY to recenter so I didn't pass out during surgery, that I was across the room, not near the patient or the staff working on this patient, etc, that I wasn't st all sleepy on this morning and was actually excited and a little nervous. i received a clinical unsastisfactory for safety and was told that we were told what to do if we didn't feel well (report it to our clinical instructor????) and that it was my 3rd clinical unsat and that it was a clinical failure.

I am in disbelief and I feel terrible. Maybe I did it all wrong, but I feel like such a loser and what they wrote makes it sound like I was under the influence or something. I get an F in the class which may not even allow me to return when they said I can which is next spring, putting me out a lot of $ in tuition and putting me back an entire year. What do I do now?