So, I'm a new grad (August '08), started my job on an adult psych unit in December, and...well...already, I want to go to medical nursing. But not just med-surg: I eventually want to get to ICU.
I feel stupid because a) my goals have changed, b) I feel unreliable, and c) I thought this is what I wanted to do. I love my job, don't get me wrong...but I'm not stimulated enough mentally. I try to keep myself as busy as I can, but I really want to get into the ICU and eventually a CRNA program.
If I could, I'd tough out the next couple months until I can transfer (you need to be here for 6 months to be eligible for transfer). I mean, the job is good, I *love* the patients, and they really seem to like me. Unfortunately, there are people that I WORK with who don't want me around. It seems like the more I do things RIGHT, and the more my patients like me, the more this certain group of people wants me gone.
I've had rumors spread around about me since I started.
I was written up last week for having a break overlap 15 minutes with a coworker (who everyone thinks I'm sleeping with). I don't think I've been around this much gossip since I worked in a hair salon in high school.
The work environment is toxic, and that's the part that I simply can't tolerate.
What do I do? I was going to talk to my manager when I go in today at 3, but I'm not sure what to say. Changing to 12-hour shifts might help; then I wouldn't have to interact as much with the night shift individuals who don't want me around. Plus, I wouldn't have to be there as many days of the week. I work evenings right now.
On top of that, how in the world do I go from psych nursing to ICU?? Or even back into medical? I've been sending out mass applications, and it seems as though I'm less desirable than I was when I first graduated.
Any advice would really help! Thanks...