Brand New...Dread Feeling..

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So I'm about a month in my brand new job of nursing and for the first few weeks. I had an amazing preceptor and felt ready to take on anything. However this past week has been rough. I got a new preceptor and now on night shift. However this preceptor is the direct opposite. They hate everything about their job and what is scary is they don't have much time on. I get no encouragement from them and what's even better is I did have a supportive staff and now well some things have happened. So management and what not is not available at the moment. I've noticed that it is a club either they like you or they don't. I expected that. I come from a 2nd career change and the first one was just as hectic and hard in terms of training but realized after sometime it didn't fit me. I came to nursing out of my own heart. I know that starting NEW is a big learning curve. However, before I go in most nights lately because it has been absolutely crazy so crazy that I'm getting told it's never really like this. I just get so upset, anxious, nauseated, and in fear of another horrible night. I'm sure this is normal right? I have had the experience of being yelled at by doctor's and being completely thrown out there, but I'm taking it by the day. I just need some inspiration. I have a few days then I'll be on my own. I hate to doubt myself but it's a mountain right now. I seem to do well time management wise, brain sheets and getting a routine down. I mean this does get better right?

[iPink, BSN, RN]

I'm a 2nd career changer as well. I'm on a very busy acute care floor and when I was on orientation I thought I wasn't going to make it. My preceptor was well known on my unit to have a great track record when it comes to orienting GNs to the unit and I felt I didn't want to be her first disappointment. I was filled with anxiety and a ball of nerves going into work. On top of that I would hear some of the nurses complain about their job. Nursing is rough, especially on us new nurses. What you are feeling is normal. We are hard on ourselves, but we need to give ourselves time to learn and grow. The anxiety and nerves will go away, sometimes they creep up on a rough patient assignment. You will have bad days as well as good, but when you have those bad days its good to have support. I have phones numbers of my colleagues on both day and night shifts that I can text when I need encouragement or advice. Why don't you Reach out to your former preceptor who you liked. Try talking to CN or ANM about possibly switching preceptors or speak directly to your preceptor.