AHDH think I'm slightly bipolar as well

[FutureLPNNursing]

Hi everyone so the thing with me is that I'm ADHD I got on meds when I was a teen and made me feel like a zombie so I laid of of them. I have not been on any medications since than and don't plan on it. I want to go the natural way even though some days I do have my panic attacks but they have gotten so much better since I eat healthier and exercise everyday. I do assume I'm a bit bipolar not anything extremely but I do catch myself having high energy than low and mood swings, nothing extremely so don't know if that's normal cause I have been like this all my life. Anywho I went to school for CMA landed several jobs and the least I could say is I came across two jobs with crappy management so I quit both. I had one good job experience as a CMA but had to quit to find a job closer to home and that's when I came across drama unprofessional coworkers including the Np so I quit. I know I would of put up a fight if I was a RN but a CMA job is so not worth it ! They are everywhere lol! I know I can easily land one and got calls for job offers even after I quit that job but decided right now is not the best time for me to work a 9-5 specially as a CMA. So I was planning Nursing an LPN program starting this August but plan to put it off till January or May of next year no later than that! I want to save $$ as a dancer possibly even pay off my outstanding student loan before I further in debit. But as far as my disability I don't know what's best for me? Stay as a Stripper and go into business house flipping or mentally really challenge myself and further into nursing than do house flipping on the side when I become an RN? I personally know someone that holds a 9-5 and does house flipping and know it's doable! If I were to become a nurse I would make sure to work 12hr shift... I just don't know anymore on what suits me. I know I'm not alone with my disability and have given up on my nursing dream plenty times cause of ppl that made me feel I wouldn't succeed in this profession. I did great as a CMA no complaints except in one of my jobs when it came to remembering certain things. I have noticed I'm a bit forgetful when I get nervous and it sucks, I try to be a people person communicated well with patients but felt so mentally tired and exhausted when I got home, not physically exhausted but mentally! And I know that's my disability. And yes I do plan to eventually give my all in house flipping business but this route is not a get rich quick or as reliable, this business needs some years to become something great so that's why I thought why not have a reliable 12hr shift job and do that on the side. To be honest I can make good money more money as a dancer than a Nurse but it's so hard to get anything under your name if you don't work an hourly job example like a home loan car loan etc. I worked as a stripper when I was 18-19 I'm 25 now and look and feel better than ever and know that once I go back its big bucks for me! Mentally I just don't know anymore I have had disappointments after disappointments in the medical field as a CMA and just question is this really for me? Plus my disability doesn't make it any easier.