After Story of Failed Nursing Student Rant

[PastNursingStudent]

I notice every now and then my past will always haunt me. Usually when I think of great successes or achieving great things I sometimes reflect my shortcomings of nursing school. Nursing school can be very emotionally draining, and I invested so much into the program only to not get a 2nd chance. I felt like I lost a part of myself when I got the news during my 3rd semester in nursing school. My grades were excellent my first two semesters, but struggled my 3rd semester. That semester depression and burnout hit me, but only my mom notice something was off with me while everybody else thought I was functional throughout the semester. I think I was looked at more harshly on my evaluations since professors were allowed to talk among each other and talk about student grades with other nursing courses.

I really tried to get pass this, but it could be challenging explaining away why I changed majors, financial aid always bothering me about my unit limits, and family relatives looking down on me.

After getting kicked out of the program, I fell in complete depression over the winter break. It was a tough Christmas and New Years. I decided to try out biology. Took some science courses. Finally, graduating one year later than my original program date and now I have a bachelors in biology focus on genetics and currently doing research in an R1 institute. I still have that nagging feeling, but it lessen over the years.

[mrsboots87]

Putting any blame on anyone but yourself will continue to leave you resentment about what happened. You have to accept that you felt the burnout and likely didn't put as much effort into it as you had in the two previous semesters. Clinicals can be subjective, but unless you did something to really **** off your clinical instructor, I doubt they were just grading you harder just because. I am not trying to put you down, but you need to accept responsibility for your actions and move on. Nursing is not for everyone and nursing school is very difficult. There is no need to be upset about not making the cut. IMHO, if you feel like you are missing out on a life of nursing and can change whatever it was that caused you to fail, then dust yourself off and reapply to either the same school or another school. If your failure keeps you from being able to apply to an RN program, apply for an LPN program. The first year will be very similar to what you already completed and then you can bridge to RN after you finish. If you aren't willing to pick yourself up and go back to school, then you will only be able to blame yourself when you continue get upset about what happened. Make a change and go for it if it means a lot to you.

[PastNursingStudent]

My huge resentment is more to do with the appeal process of not getting that 2nd chance and not knowing what they discussed in the conference if they should keep me in the program or not. In my last evaluation it mention how I lack critical thinking skills and the thought process of nursing when I think it is a lack of communication skills. I didn't sign that evaluation since I don't agree with the opinion of my clinical instructor so I probably signed my warrant without realizing it. My resentment is to do with how subjective the evaluation could be and how they said it is tough on them and they are just trying to help me be a better nursing in the long run.

I was able to pick myself up by changing majors and actually succeeding, but feel that it is not worth going back since I got shot financially by doing this program and know that the professor probably didn't not give a care about me.