Help! Advice (long)

I am trying to learn more about research nursing.

Let me tell you a little bit about myself first.

I graduated with a bachelor's in psychology. I worked three years as a research assistant in a university's pharm and neuroscience dept. I did behavioral testing on mice, ethanol binge studies on mice, and some cell culture work. There were good things and bad things about my job. A variety factors and circumstances led me to an accelerated bachelors in nursing program. I really thought it was right for me and my family. I graduated in Aug 08 and started a ICU internship in September. I just had my first week (on nights) on my own. Even during my school clinicals I knew that I would be someone who would really need to find a niche to really be happy. I also knew that bedside nursing was not what I wanted to do forever. But truthfully I really hate going to work. I don't feel like the environment and functioning of bedside nursing works for me.The truth is I miss research. I also know and have heard that it takes awhile and that self-doubting is common for new grads. And it's not that its ICU. I know for a fact that floor nursing is something I could not handle at all (those nurses that do that are amazing, I have the utmost respect for them!). I'm not someone that quits anything (I always just push through), so even considering leaving this soon just shows how emotional and mentally drained I am.

I would just like to combine the two worlds, nursing and research. I looked at many post on this site and resources on the web, but I can't really get a grip on the day to life of a nurse researcher or the true nature of the work. Plus, is it possible to get a job in nurse research with such little acute care experience. I do have 3 years research experience, just not nursing. My true passion is neuro.

Sorry for the long post, hard week, needed to vent and learn. I really want what everyone wants: I job that you don't dread going to and when you're not there to not worry about having to go back.

ANY help/information/resources would be a godsend! Thanks in advance