i think i hate being a nurse? - page 4

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Ok, so I've been an RN for one year now, working as a float nurse in a busy urban pediatric hospital. At first, being a new grad, I was scared (poop)*less not only because I was new (and felt clueless), but also because I work... Read More


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    So what have you decided to do?
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    I have been nursing for 17yrs now and know completely how you all feel. I go through stages of loving my joba and then there are days when I just don't want to go.
    I think that you need to find an area that you really like. I always wanted to work in critical care since i was a student and now I have my masters in Crit care but i still have my days when I want to get out of nursing full stop.
    At my age, I think it is too late to go back to university for a new career so I am at a loss also.
    I think I would Love nursing to the day I die if I didn't have to deal with other nurses.
    The **********, brown nosing and politics I see at work make me hate it. At least I have one patient and am in my own bay in intensive care so I can have limited time around other staff. I love my patients and I love caring for them.
    I would love to be an ambulaance officer but a preexisting condition prevents that for me.
    The only way is up the ladder or another specialty.
    I am looking at forensic nursing, how interesting?
    I also don't recommend people to go into nursing and when I see the young graduate students come in on their training days I pity them but they are so enthusiastic like I once was.

    Try looking at all the other venues or specialties, community nursing, forensic nursing, management, teaching, psychology, peads, oncology, renal, medical, surgical, nursing homes, wounds, stoma nurses, outpatients, working for health insurance companies, selling medical products....

    If you think of anything else that's exciting, please LET ME KNOW!
    Take care
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    I just want to say thank you to everyone who posted here. I am feeling downhearted as it seems most of you have (or are). After 10 months at my first nursing job in LTC I am finally starting on a Med/Surg unit. I'm very excited most of the time but I also go through periods of apprehension. I started my current job feeling confident, intelligent, and hopeful and am now insecure and hopeless. To say my job was disappointing would be an understatement. I tell my husband all the time I just want to be good enough. I have become hypercritical of myself and feel like a failure. I feel I will never be able to relearn all the knowledge that has escaped me. The past year has been an emotional roller. I don't know that my psyche can ever be repaired, but knowing I am not alone means so much.
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    I feel the same way but do not know what else to do.
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    I was working my first night shift in years on med floor and I started getting real sleepy big time so I went to make coffee and forgot to put the pot under the stream and it went all over the floor all the staff were making fun of me then you will never believe what I did next the same thing again all over the place. The sad part it is my first week on the job.
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    I am a new RN just about to be off my 10 week orientation in a few days and I am really regretting going into nursing. I was a great student, I worked my butt off, I really had an interest in it, and I still do, I like reading nursing journals, I like reviewing my nursing notes. I moved from CT to Florida to get a job because the job outlook in CT was bleak. I moved to Florida and 1 week after getting my license endorsed I got a job. I was at this one hospital for 8 weeks and was bullied, I felt like my preceptor and some of the nurse aides were purposely bringing up small "problems"(which were not even issues, really, saying I wasnt "nice"-I am the nicest person I know) to management to get me fired, and would never help me no matter how many times I asked. I also felt like I didn't fit in, so I found another job and quit. So now I am at this new hospital and I like most of my co-workers, everything is electronic so no verbal, no phone orders, I feel like my job is streamlined. The aides are very helpful and professional. There is a lot of teamwork, and ,my pt load is 4-5 pts, but it is a high accuity med-surg floor. For some reason, I am just not liking it. I dread going to work everyday. Looking back, I have enjoyed every job I have had before this, even minimum wage jobs, and I would work 60 hours a week to make extra money. I dont think I will be volunteering for more hours than my minimum required to make more money though I could because I just dont want to go. I feel that me volunteering to work an extra shift would break me- I feel like some incident or accident would occur and it would change my life for the worse, I would be liable for something, sued for something and I would get my license taken away. I just dont like being so responsible for the lives of every pt. I get blamed for things that I had no hand in doing, simply because I am that pt's nurse. For example, I tried to draw blood on a pt, was unable to. I asked a fellow nurse, he tried, could only get a little, needed a new tube, the charge nurse handed us a new one from stock room. He got the blood and sent it down, I labelled it and initialed it. I get a call from lab that 2 different pt labels are on it! I felt so twilight zoned, I didnt put another pts label on a new tube, and I didnt see another one on a brand new tube from stock room. So I got a talking to from the manager about patient safety. They somewhat resolved it, not really knowing how the label got on it, just said something like oh well maybe a sticker from another tube in the lab got stuck to it. I just dont like that everything falls on our shoulders even if we had no knowledge of it, had no hand in it. I feel that others would throw you under the bus in a heart beat to save themselves. I also feel that many other professionals in the hospital that are not nurses yet work with pts will slack off with some aspects of their job because they have a RN that will finish things up for them, ie PT has just worked with pt, put them in chair, "Oh, they had a BM, you will have to get them cleaned up, byebye". Some will leave the pt to sit in their own filth for others to clean up when they are the ones that discovered it, and others are good about it and will clean up the pt. They are busy but I am busy too! I also dread walking in not knowing what kind of assignment I am going to get for the day, what kinds of new problems I will face, what problems I will have to solve, what I wont know how to handle, what the night RN left for me to do that really shouldve gotten done 2 days ago,ie rotating IVs. Sometimes I feel that some night RNs barely look at the pt, they can barely recall certain things in report etc. Skin? IV? Dsg? I know certain things cant get dealt with at night, but I feel like a lot of things are left for me that couldve gotten taken care of as well. Also, I hate that I know I am getting an admission at 2 or 3 pm but here they come at 6:30 pm , 30 min before shift change. If you are an ER RN please, stop doing that! I feel trapped and on top of it all, I just found out that I am pregnant, so I wont be leaving anytime soon. Just venting....
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    Quote from nurseladybug12
    I am a new RN just about to be off my 10 week orientation in a few days and I am really regretting going into nursing. I was a great student, I worked my butt off, I really had an interest in it, and I still do, I like reading nursing journals, I like reviewing my nursing notes. I moved from CT to Florida to get a job because the job outlook in CT was bleak. I moved to Florida and 1 week after getting my license endorsed I got a job. I was at this one hospital for 8 weeks and was bullied, I felt like my preceptor and some of the nurse aides were purposely bringing up small "problems"(which were not even issues, really, saying I wasnt "nice"-I am the nicest person I know) to management to get me fired, and would never help me no matter how many times I asked. I also felt like I didn't fit in, so I found another job and quit. So now I am at this new hospital and I like most of my co-workers, everything is electronic so no verbal, no phone orders, I feel like my job is streamlined. The aides are very helpful and professional. There is a lot of teamwork, and ,my pt load is 4-5 pts, but it is a high accuity med-surg floor. For some reason, I am just not liking it. I dread going to work everyday. Looking back, I have enjoyed every job I have had before this, even minimum wage jobs, and I would work 60 hours a week to make extra money. I dont think I will be volunteering for more hours than my minimum required to make more money though I could because I just dont want to go. I feel that me volunteering to work an extra shift would break me- I feel like some incident or accident would occur and it would change my life for the worse, I would be liable for something, sued for something and I would get my license taken away. I just dont like being so responsible for the lives of every pt. I get blamed for things that I had no hand in doing, simply because I am that pt's nurse. For example, I tried to draw blood on a pt, was unable to. I asked a fellow nurse, he tried, could only get a little, needed a new tube, the charge nurse handed us a new one from stock room. He got the blood and sent it down, I labelled it and initialed it. I get a call from lab that 2 different pt labels are on it! I felt so twilight zoned, I didnt put another pts label on a new tube, and I didnt see another one on a brand new tube from stock room. So I got a talking to from the manager about patient safety. They somewhat resolved it, not really knowing how the label got on it, just said something like oh well maybe a sticker from another tube in the lab got stuck to it. I just dont like that everything falls on our shoulders even if we had no knowledge of it, had no hand in it. I feel that others would throw you under the bus in a heart beat to save themselves. I also feel that many other professionals in the hospital that are not nurses yet work with pts will slack off with some aspects of their job because they have a RN that will finish things up for them, ie PT has just worked with pt, put them in chair, "Oh, they had a BM, you will have to get them cleaned up, byebye". Some will leave the pt to sit in their own filth for others to clean up when they are the ones that discovered it, and others are good about it and will clean up the pt. They are busy but I am busy too! I also dread walking in not knowing what kind of assignment I am going to get for the day, what kinds of new problems I will face, what problems I will have to solve, what I wont know how to handle, what the night RN left for me to do that really shouldve gotten done 2 days ago,ie rotating IVs. Sometimes I feel that some night RNs barely look at the pt, they can barely recall certain things in report etc. Skin? IV? Dsg? I know certain things cant get dealt with at night, but I feel like a lot of things are left for me that couldve gotten taken care of as well. Also, I hate that I know I am getting an admission at 2 or 3 pm but here they come at 6:30 pm , 30 min before shift change. If you are an ER RN please, stop doing that! I feel trapped and on top of it all, I just found out that I am pregnant, so I wont be leaving anytime soon. Just venting....
    You seem to have a lot of issues about a lot of things. Nursing is not perfect although it is the most rewarding profession there is. I have been a nurse for 30 yrs and see lots. Nursing school does not prepare students for the real world. Yes we are responsible for a lot but that is our role and our patients count on us. Yes the day is long and busy but ensuring patients needs are met again is our role. We can't spend the shift worrying about what isn't right, what others do but worry about ourselves. Be open to feedback and listen to what others observe,its all about perception. I am always a believer that someone can make a good nurse. If you are not happy then maybe you need to find something else. It doesn't sound like you are and the patient always suffers.
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    Quote from arallenrn11
    I just want to say thank you to everyone who posted here. I am feeling downhearted as it seems most of you have (or are). After 10 months at my first nursing job in LTC I am finally starting on a Med/Surg unit. I'm very excited most of the time but I also go through periods of apprehension. I started my current job feeling confident, intelligent, and hopeful and am now insecure and hopeless. To say my job was disappointing would be an understatement. I tell my husband all the time I just want to be good enough. I have become hypercritical of myself and feel like a failure. I feel I will never be able to relearn all the knowledge that has escaped me. The past year has been an emotional roller. I don't know that my psyche can ever be repaired, but knowing I am not alone means so much.
    You can do it. Stop feeling for yourself and put a plan of success in place. Read your professional journals and go to some med/surf conferences. Take a diagnosis of a patient you are caring for and read about it...just the basics. You can do it. I was in management for the last 10yrs and list my job. I took on a job as a early response team leader. That was scary not touching a patient for 10 yrs. I think I am doing a great job and what I don't know I ask about and research. The staff and residents look to me for the answer. You don't have to be cocky but be confident and ask questions. Hang in there you will get it! Stop beating yourself up.
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    Wow, I'm sorry! I can't say my introduction to nursing was rosy either and I won't lie and tell you how rewarding it is now. Many things you mention are common, more so in certain hospitals/regions. ER will never ever ever stop giving you the 630 admit, so just expect and prepare for that every day so you get out on time. If you go work ER, you will understand why.
    You don't even know how to be a nurse yet, much less decide you hate it. You won't feel lost, dreadful, and frustrated every day forever. Your job is streamlined and task oriented. Nursing is 100% responsibility, 0% authority. You are smart for worrying about being sued, and you should already have malpractice insurance and keep it for a few years after you quit/retire. There are tips, classes and seminars about how to write your notes to protect yourself as well.
    GL and Congrats!
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    Sounds like you're one of those people who would rather hate their job and make the patient suffer because of it - you suck in my opinion and I hope youre never my nurse!!!!


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