Quote from YogiGal
1) Yes, I love the hospital (or at least I thought I did) so it was my plan to stay there after graduation if able. I've had important life experiences there, so originally I thought this was *it*. Also, in meeting other nurses and nursing aides on other units within the hospital, they wouldn't transfer to my unit for anything because it is known for being so terrible, so I really do not think like its like this throughout the hospital but I'm locked in to this unit for one year and I'm not sure I can make it.
2) I'm glad to hear you think I can be honest with a future employer on this topic. Thank you!
3) You're right. It shouldn't matter but it does because (I didn't disclose in my original post) is that I have an immediate family member who works in an entirely different unit w/in the hospital but we fall under the same ND. My fellow unit co-workers know that we are related (not by my own disclosing but by GOSSIP) and I'm worried if or how leaving will reflect on her.
Despite your reply, I still don't understand why this is a topic you're still debating with yourself. If you don't think you'll make it a year, don't stay. If you want to find a place to work that will teach you how to work with other nurses (absolutely necessary to being a nurse), encourage a good learning environment for you as both a CNA and RN and build a good resume for your future endeavors, it's time for you to go!
And your job performance/quitting won't reflect on your relative who is still working at the hospital. And for heaven's sake, if it does, then BOTH of you need to get out of there!
Just remember, if you do stay, you've made your bed. You'd better be ready to lay in it. Harsh? Yes. True? Absolutely! Choose wisely.