I started my RPN program this year. I was soooo excited to get in, I have wanted to be a nurse FOREVER!!! Now that I am in school, my program is just not what I thought it would be. I'm disappointed with it. I'm now (I think) regretting not just going for my RN. I don't feel challenged enough. I'm really bored in my clinical settings and labs. In clinical I desperately try to find things to do, nurses to help, patients to help, even to go just sit and talk to patients and listen to them tell me stories, I restock everything and still end up with nothing to do. I am use to working in a really fast paced atmosphere with lots of pressure and stress. I hate having nothing to do. Like today in clinical lab, everyone was so excited to learn about sterile technique and gloving and that's fine and all, I want to learn how to do it properly to. But I listen and watch my instructor do it, then I do it and people around me just aren't understanding the concepts and I want to scream REALLY!!! Ok maybe that's a bad example, but I had to do that all day
Last week I was talking to a couple nurses I was working under and I realized how much people made out the programs to not be so different, as far as knowledge base. Now though my problem is, I can't just cross over into the RN program. I would have to start from the beginning and that would be a whole 4 years all over!!!! I can't do that with my life right now. So now, I feel like I have to drag myself through the next year and a half until I graduate and then find a bridging program. I don't know, I just feel very lost about it all. Is it just normal to feel this way come this time? or am I just ridiculous? I love nursing still, I just feel I either need to take a downer or this course needs to take an upper!! If that makes any sense! I have one amazing instructor, but she teaches my classes, so needless to say, they are the only classes I look forward to. If I had her as an instructor, shes hardcore, maybe it would be better, i don't know, maybe that's what I need? Anyways thats my frustrated lost rant of the day!