New Nurse - Struggling

[RN_srs]

Hey There,

I've been an RN on a Medical floor since June and I'm having some really mixed feelings. I've been a CNA in subacute and LTC, and an LPN in LTC. As a new grad I was strongly encouraged to start out on a Medical/Surgical type floor to gain experience... so that is what I'm doing.

I absolutely love taking care of people and I've always known nursing was for me, except lately, I've been having unwelcome thoughts about being a floor nurse. I don't hate my job, but I don't necessarily like it. I'd rather not be there and I'd really prefer to not have to be there full time either.

I love teaching and I find on nights my ability to teach is limited and most of my patients are very unappreciative. I'm in the process of applying for an RN to BSN to MSN program so I can become a nurse educator.

I'm to the point where I could just cry before work, I'm so stressed out and I'm not typically and anxious person.

Looking for advice on what to do until I get my MSN. I can apply for other jobs within my company in mid December, any suggestions that still have good pay and aren't as demanding as a Medical floor?

Thanks!

[Rhody34]

Can you try a different shift? Sounds like you're at least approaching 6 months... Usually by then hospitals allow for internal transfers. I'm not a night person and cannot function on nights... My emotions would be whacky too, I think. I work medical-tele and yes, it can be crazy busy, there are bad days... But I enjoy it. I like teaching too and there is a lot of opportunity on day shift for that. I would give the medical floor more time, but try another shift. Good luck! Hang in there!