Quote from BrandonLPN
It takes all kinds to make the world go round. Nursing is no different. I'm sure you bring a lot to the table that "type As" don't.
"Type A"...did I put that in my original post? lol You're right, I'm not very "Type A" at all and I guess that's why at times I ask myself if I'm in the wrong field. I like learning the skills, the mode of thinking, the process, etc, and applying them in the hospital, I like talking to patients and families (most times), Med/Surg, Peds, L&D...I like it. But then I get to the part of administration and my heart breaks. I've yet to feel advocated for by administration. I am my own advocate and I'm more than willing to further learn how to use my voice, but I just feel like being calm-natured, laid-back, making a mistake and then learning from it next time is just...not enough. I'm not going to kill my patients. I look everything up because I love knowing why I'm doing what I'm doing. I ask questions and I'm not mindless in my process. For the most part, they seem to like me. It's just the pressure to be...I don't even know what...anal? obtuse?, is not pleasant. I know it's not the person I want to be or become. It's against my vision. They can just make me feel like this is the person I HAVE to be if I want to survive and be respected in the world of Nursing.
I'm venting right now...but it's because I'm soul-searching. I'm not leaving Nursing. I want this. I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with my experiences so far and remain my happy, calm, self-assured, self.
Just checked...I did put "Type A". Forgot all that I wrote. lol