Assuming The Nurse Role - page 2
by Soliloquy 2,208 Views | 12 Comments
Today's just one of those days when I'm doubting my entire life. I feel down, I feel incompetent and I feel like I'm not improving. It's just one of those days when I'm looking inside myself, reexamining her, and viewing her from... Read More
- 1Oct 25, '12 by mmm333If you are losing heart in nursing school already, you need to figure out a way to cope. The reality of nursing after school is truly soul-crushing for those who don't develop a thick skin. There are books on the topic that you can buy. And of course people here to get advice from. Think of it as a problem that needs to be addressed and use the nursing process on yourself.
- 0Oct 26, '12 by SoliloquyQuote from BrandonLPN"Type A"...did I put that in my original post? lol You're right, I'm not very "Type A" at all and I guess that's why at times I ask myself if I'm in the wrong field. I like learning the skills, the mode of thinking, the process, etc, and applying them in the hospital, I like talking to patients and families (most times), Med/Surg, Peds, L&D...I like it. But then I get to the part of administration and my heart breaks. I've yet to feel advocated for by administration. I am my own advocate and I'm more than willing to further learn how to use my voice, but I just feel like being calm-natured, laid-back, making a mistake and then learning from it next time is just...not enough. I'm not going to kill my patients. I look everything up because I love knowing why I'm doing what I'm doing. I ask questions and I'm not mindless in my process. For the most part, they seem to like me. It's just the pressure to be...I don't even know what...anal? obtuse?, is not pleasant. I know it's not the person I want to be or become. It's against my vision. They can just make me feel like this is the person I HAVE to be if I want to survive and be respected in the world of Nursing.It takes all kinds to make the world go round. Nursing is no different. I'm sure you bring a lot to the table that "type As" don't.
I'm venting right now...but it's because I'm soul-searching. I'm not leaving Nursing. I want this. I'm just trying to figure out how to deal with my experiences so far and remain my happy, calm, self-assured, self.
Just checked...I did put "Type A". Forgot all that I wrote. lolLast edit by Soliloquy on Oct 26, '12