So, tomorrow morning I get up at 5am and go to my very first day on the floor with my preceptor.
All of a sudden I have all this anxiety, when I've been fine all week! And of course I keep reading all the horror stories of first days where the new grad is left to hang blood alone and all this stuff we were never allowed to do in school and that the doctors made them cry, etc...
Somebody please tell me the first day is not that bad! I have a very good feeling that it isn't going to be like that and even talked about it with my manager in regards to what I'm going to be expected to do at first (follow the nurse, figure out where everything is on the floor, practice documenting), but for some reason I'm really, really nervous that I'm just going to forget everything I know, and if the nurse asks me to do something or asks me a question I'm just going to stand there frozen! Or that it's just going to be assumed that I know how to do stuff that I read all about but never got to practice enough only going to clinical one day a week for 3 months at a time. ;____; I'm seriously tempted to bust out my skills book and read it front to back in case I forgot something between now and 2 years ago.
On top of that I'm taking the NCLEX this friday. The only plus is maybe since I have zero appetite I'll lose some of the weight I gained in nursing school