I haven't been on Allnurses in some time. Winter has been long, tedious, but filled with my new found love for snowboarding. In my hiatus from Allnurses, I have learned so much about my ER nights. Let me first say that I love my coworkers as much as one can love others you are with during 12 hours (those highs and lows). I have come to love those coworkers despite their idiosyncrasies. I have learned to value their skill and rely on them at some point. We have many levels of nurses and physicians and I find it takes the patience of Job to sometimes deal with these differences (new vs. experienced). I find that I can be quite impatient (only displayed inwardly, resulting in some serious knots in my muscles!) and have an unreasonable expectation of skill when I feel that it is not only necessary, but required in our job. Every day I learn of something new, which is just awesome.
Just recently a dear friend and coworker lost their job. It has made me realize the fragile nature of our ER nursing jobs and how we really are on the line each time we clock in. We are held to impossibly high standards that have very little room for error. I think it is purposeful and management decides to take a stance against a certain person and will use whatever they can to slowly decimate that person. I am so sad for this person. We are fallible. We all make mistakes, but it's our ability to own up to them, take responsibility and learn from them that separates us from other nurses. It is sad when this profession (of all professions) is scrutinized so harshly.
I just have a hard time knowing that each of us could be on the chopping block each time we go to work. We are often in very unpredictable situations where we make the best decisions that we can at that moment. It's very difficult for others to judge unless you are in that moment. My heart is heavy for this person.
I will say, though, as I reflect about the events, I know that in my practice, I will think about this person and it will have changed me for the better. It's unfortunate that we learn from others' mistakes.