Dreams, well I wished thats what I had, but I was so ready to get started I could hardly sleep. Then once I got into the clinical area I would be so excited that I could hardly sleep at night. My class mates were the same way, we would be up till 2 am getting ready for clinicals, reading, making notes, and worrying about all the questions that would be posed to us by our attendings on the day of clinicals. They of course always seem to ask you the questions that you could never answer and for awhile you would feel so dumb but now as I am more experienced I see they were showing us how much there is to learn and that the learning process is never over.
Give it all you got for here where I train they love to see you sweat but it keeps you on your toes. You will be glad one day as I am that they don't go easy on you. I know this is getting off subject but I thought I would give you a little pep talk. The hardest thing is that you are basically starting a new job and you will have to gain the respect of all you work with, so you are back at the bottom of the pile. Most don't see you as a competent nurse nor as a CRNA, you are a student and will have to take all that they throw at you with a smile. There will be many days where you work your ass off with no thanks or recognition and it is expected. You will have to draw off your inner strength and know what you are doing is one day going to pay off and every day just keep getting up and putting on your scrubs
and do the best that you can do. Granted not all days are bad and there will be days that no matter what happens you will feel like a million bucks for the job you did and how you were able to manage your patient to optimal outcome.
Its a learning process for everyone in the program and its good to stick close with your classmates even if you don't see eye to eye with everyone.