Hi I'm new on this forum. So glad to have found it. I've been reading through archives and have already found it to be a tremendous resource. Thanks for being here!
I have two dilemmas really:
One: I'm a busy 33 year old mom of 4. I'm a massage therapist, doula, and childbirth educator who feels extremely fulfilled being involved in birth. I really could not ask for more... except that I'm frustrated that women who ask me for birthing options don't have enough, esp. those women w/ medicaid, and I'm often frustrated when I go to births at how they are managed, and I'm frustrated that I don't make as much money as I need to-- I work very hard and always worry about getting my next batch of clients just to close up $40,000 a year. And I feel like it's not going anywhere professionally. I'm not going to get raises or pensions or benefits, and I am worried about using my body so intensively for too many more years, I am sensing that it's time to start thinking about a transition...
I also feel clinically inclined. I have a non-nursing bachelors from Columbia University. I'm bright (enough).
So, my first dilemma is: my heart is in birth, but I look at midwives as like next to God... am I really ready to be that person? Do I need to be that person or am I just turning to it out of financial desperation which is not the best motive?
Second dilemma: a lot of this question is tied up in how much of a sacrifice it will take to make that transition. I feel like my kids will suffer. but I also feel like they will suffer if we cannot meet our basic expenses, which we currently cannot. Something has to change. My husband is supportive but not very organized, and he has never been very reliable for income...
my choices are as follows:
I live a mile away from SUNY Downstate in brooklyn and SUNY offers a direct entry program for non-nurses. being that I already have a BA, I could take 8-9 prereqs at whatever pace I choose--big point here-- I can continue to work! and try to make more $ so I can save up, and pretty much have my same life-- then do either 2 year full time or 3 year part time midwifery program. I don't expect to be able to work at that time. I would have same scope of practice as a CNM, but just be a CM. Part of me worries that I won't get as much respect in the job market and fears that I will be somehow clinically inferior, but I also kind of like the "purity" of not being "poisoned" as an L&D nurse since I am more natural/ homebirth oriented, etc... and I don't realistically think I'll leave the NY area so I'm not so worried about not being a CNM.
OR...I could do no prereqs, and go through nursing school
part time or full time (my estimates are that I would spend about 18 hrs per week in the PT program and 24 hrs per week in the FT program plus studying) bottom line-- would be very hard to work. Why am I considering this?
1. to get the CNM credential with all the liberties it entails
2. to have the possibility of going to Frontier instead. It sounds like such a cool program-- if any of you struggled w/ Frontier vs. SUNY or something similar, can you PLEASE weigh in? And it sounds like Frontier would be a little easier to handle as a mom/ working person-- do classwork at midnight or 6am-- do you have to be extremely self-disciplined to be in a distance program? there issomething about being forced to come into class. I'm also a visual learner, so although Frontier is exciting to me--I'm a little worried about whether or not I'm an ideal distance learner. But for the clinical part, I can think of a bunch of midwives that I would love to apprentice w/ versus who knows how much clinical anything you really get at a university MW program?
Sorry-now that I wrote this I see it could have been about 4 different threads b/c there are so many issues intertwined, but it's alrady down on the screen, so I'm praying I'll get some sage advice from. some of you wise women.