First of all, I am not sure if I am posting in the right section, please feel free to redirect this.
I am a new grad and have been working at my hospital for over 3 months on night shift (would have not been able to handle day shift, too much stuff/stress going on). My orientation consisted of 2 weeks of class (going over policies, etc) and around 7 weeks (3 shifts/week) of being on the floor with a preceptor. After that, I have been on my own.
I hate my job. I know this is common for a new grad, feeling of doom, anxiety, depression, and what not but I truly do not like my job. I can not handle the stress of a hospital job. I am currently working in a telemetry unit. I always feel anxious at work and even at home. i think about work on my days off even when I try not to. i feel like i am going to hurt a patient or forget an important sign. I can not handle the stress of working at the hospital. My blood pressure has been high due to work, sometimes in the SBP in the 150s and DBP in the 100s and I am only 27 years old.
I used to be money driven, but ever since working at the hospital, I have been realizing the importance of being happy. I would rather have a simple job with a meager income if it means I am happier and healthier.
I know for a fact that I do not want to work as a floor nurse. I am not even sure if I want to be a nurse anymore. The idea of being a public health nurse or school nurse seems nice due to the less stress and more convenient hours (m-f, days, and having holidays off) but I am not sure if I should stick it out for the first year of experience at a hospital. Some say that the first year of experience is necessary and some say that it is not. I am even considering getting teaching credentials to teach elementary/middle/high school (my original plan before I chose nursing).
My boyfriend of 8 years has noticed how unhappy and stressed I am and even suggested to quit for my happiness and health. He is willing to financially support me in whatever decision I make, even if it means I will be unemployed for +six months. I also still live at home with my parents.
My question is, should I quit?
As of right now, my goal is to get that one year of experience, but that just seems so far away and I am so unhappy and stressed right now. Also, if that one year of experience is not necessary than why should I continue? My managers are supportive and helpful (not sure if it is because they truly care or if they don't want me to quit) and gave me good feedback on my 3 month evaluation, saying that I am exactly where I need to be and doing fine. I just saw a public health nurse I position that required no experience (just a PHN certification, which I have yet to submit but am working on it), while many others say that having one year of experience is crucial. I am so confused.
I am also working as a waitress 1 day/2 weeks and have been working at this restaurant for almost 8 years. I would usually work 5-6 days/week before becoming a nurse(and I get preferential scheduling because I am a trainer). I am holding on to this job because it feels like cake walk/stress relief and just in case I do quit my hospital job.
I am in California and the nursing ratio on the telemetry floor is 4:1. So far, I had a bit of nurse bullying but I don't mind it and the atmosphere of the floor seems ok overall, it's just that I hate working there.
At this point, I don't care about all the years of studying I did to become a nurse. If I could replay my life, I wished I didn't go into nursing. I am just miserable.
What would you do in my situation? Quit? Try to work for one year?
First of all, I am not sure if I am posting in the right section, please feel free to redirect this.
I am a new grad and have been working at my hospital for over 3 months on night shift (would have not been able to handle day shift, too much stuff/stress going on). My orientation consisted of 2 weeks of class (going over policies, etc) and around 7 weeks (3 shifts/week) of being on the floor with a preceptor. After that, I have been on my own.
I hate my job. I know this is common for a new grad, feeling of doom, anxiety, depression, and what not but I truly do not like my job. I can not handle the stress of a hospital job. I am currently working in a telemetry unit. I always feel anxious at work and even at home. i think about work on my days off even when I try not to. i feel like i am going to hurt a patient or forget an important sign. I can not handle the stress of working at the hospital. My blood pressure has been high due to work, sometimes in the SBP in the 150s and DBP in the 100s and I am only 27 years old.
I used to be money driven, but ever since working at the hospital, I have been realizing the importance of being happy. I would rather have a simple job with a meager income if it means I am happier and healthier.
I know for a fact that I do not want to work as a floor nurse. I am not even sure if I want to be a nurse anymore. The idea of being a public health nurse or school nurse seems nice due to the less stress and more convenient hours (m-f, days, and having holidays off) but I am not sure if I should stick it out for the first year of experience at a hospital. Some say that the first year of experience is necessary and some say that it is not. I am even considering getting teaching credentials to teach elementary/middle/high school (my original plan before I chose nursing).
My boyfriend of 8 years has noticed how unhappy and stressed I am and even suggested to quit for my happiness and health. He is willing to financially support me in whatever decision I make, even if it means I will be unemployed for +six months. I also still live at home with my parents.
My question is, should I quit?
As of right now, my goal is to get that one year of experience, but that just seems so far away and I am so unhappy and stressed right now. Also, if that one year of experience is not necessary than why should I continue? My managers are supportive and helpful (not sure if it is because they truly care or if they don't want me to quit) and gave me good feedback on my 3 month evaluation, saying that I am exactly where I need to be and doing fine. I just saw a public health nurse I position that required no experience (just a PHN certification, which I have yet to submit but am working on it), while many others say that having one year of experience is crucial. I am so confused.
I am also working as a waitress 1 day/2 weeks and have been working at this restaurant for almost 8 years. I would usually work 5-6 days/week before becoming a nurse(and I get preferential scheduling because I am a trainer). I am holding on to this job because it feels like cake walk/stress relief and just in case I do quit my hospital job.
I am in California and the nursing ratio on the telemetry floor is 4:1. So far, I had a bit of nurse bullying but I don't mind it and the atmosphere of the floor seems ok overall, it's just that I hate working there.
At this point, I don't care about all the years of studying I did to become a nurse. If I could replay my life, I wished I didn't go into nursing. I am just miserable.
What would you do in my situation? Quit? Try to work for one year?