Seeing Myself Out

I disliked circulating and preferred to scrub. Unfortunately that made me dislike my OR residency that was only preparing us to circulate and ultimately that and discrimination from a few powerful people resulted me being let go from the OR and the entire healthcare system (which they don't typically do for OR residency wash outs). I will never put myself in that situation again, but I hope my luck takes a turn for the better and I can get a staff position in an OR someday and scrub or do both.

OP, I'm rooting for you. I was a successful nurse for most part working in psych before getting into an OR residency. I probably have ADHD but was never diagnosed, and my residency instructor/preceptor for most of the bad days I worked was likely to have ADHD. However, our personalities didn't mesh well and we always butted heads. She set me up for fail and I ended up getting nervous whenever I worked with her and end up making more mistakes due to anxiety or getting too focused to impress her. Whenever I tried to defend myself she always accused me of arguing. Ultimately I was let go from the residency because her words outweighted my words, and management didn't care about me doing well when I was with other preceptors either. I was the only minority and LGBTQ+ person there too. I am working psych again as a traveling nurse, and I don't see myself doing another residency. If I get a staff nurse position in an OR, I really believe I can get running with a standard orientation as long as I don't have preceptor(s) who set me up for fail. I am older than some of the charge nurses, have more overall nursing experience, and higher education than many of them. As a former EMT I also had an easy time helping with anesthesia with unstable patients when my preceptors had no idea what to do and panicked. I do see potential to do well in the OR at the right place with the right people, but if I can't go back I won't lose sleep over it.

Hope things work out for you. If you ride it out I doubt your preceptor will be working on the same unit and on the same shifts all the time, and having different patient loads would keep you out of each other's hair most of the time unless she is often the charge nurse or resource/break nurse. But once again, it's important to document everything and take note of who is in the vicinity when more "incidents" occur, so you can have solid defense if she is the one that goes to HR/management first. If they are violating safety/professional standards, you will definitely be the one in the right.

Just got accepted into an OR residency. PM me if you want to know more

Tell them you are disinterested in continuing working in psychiatry and would like to change specialties that interest you more personally.

I hope you were joking.

Sorry to hear that. Not everyone fits into the specialty they were hired into right after nursing school, myself included. I think it's completely ok to dislike some nursing specialties and work towards a change. Where are you located? I'm begging to get into the OR but haven't had any success. What do you dislike about it?

What were you asking the nurses to do?

Pulled IV tubing out of the bag of fluids that was still half full.

If I'm a former paramedic I would be a much better nurse today especially dealing with emergencies. Whoever that judges you for being a paramedic is an idiot.

Add security and secretary onto the list too...

did the nap...I mean Niacin smell good in the morning?

Have a phone interview tomorrow. Really anxious.

While some hospitals are better than others, I don't think there will be a place where I like everything. If I am having a good time I probably won't get paid for it.

I don't think I would carry a firearm if my job duties require me to be within the patients' reach and risk any altered or aggressive patients taking it from me and shooting me and others. I'm not a touchy person in everyday life and avoid situations and places that would cause me to be super close to strangers, so carrying outside of work would be a different story if I live somewhere where it's legal to do so.