Need advice on whether to keep my license or let it go

[NurseyRN4u]

i have been a very dedicated nurse for over 17 years and am now faced with possibly of having to give up my license all because of one dui. i have never been in trouble and have always made the right decisions except this one night when i used poor judgement. now hprp is involved and i feel like it is never going to end. i do not feel i am an alcoholic. i do not crave alcohol nor do i feel i need it to enhance my life. since my dui i completed my court ordered probation and have steered away from alcohol all together which was very seldom anyway only to be faced with this program which i know i do not need. but of course everything you say in group is twisted around and every little thing you do is judged. i resent being in this program and know so many other people in the workplace who do need this. my therapist didn't even like the fact that i drove past a liquor store to get home. he expected me to drive 5 miles out of my way so i wouldn't see it. that is just retarded to me. i was originally given a 2 year contract and had to back out after 6 months because i couldn't afford it. now that i have another job (out of the nursing field) i am ready to tackle it again only to find out that they increased it to 3 years and i must do an iop program for 6 weeks which is $6,000.00 alone. if and when i complete this program i will be 45 years old and negative approximately $30,000.00, thats if there are no problems. is it really worth all that? i love my career but jeez this program sets you up to fail it seems. i would like someone else's outlook on this. tell me what you think....

[nmd11]

get the pharmacist(s) to write the doctor a letter!!!!!!