Hello fellow nurses. I am a newer registered nurse with 15 months experience on a PCU stroke unit/tele medsurg unit. I currently work in a LTC facility part-time because I am going to school full-time to finish my BSN (graduated from a hospital-based nursing program). I will be graduating in May. I have always been interested in critical care and emergency care since I was little (even shadowed a paramedic friend for fun), but I don't know if I have what it takes. I didn't like regular floor nursing, because I couldn't give my patients the care I thought they deserved (up to 5 on stroke unit, up to 8-9 on med unit) . I went home knowing I did my best, but still felt bad. I am definitely a type A personality and can be obsessive at points, sometimes triple checking heparin or cardizem drip infusion rates. I'm not afraid to ask questions or ask for help, I prefer to consult with more experienced nurses and doctors that way I know my patient is getting the best care, we learn from one another and it gives me a peace of mind. I don't know if it's lack of confidence/experience and/or fear of making a mistake that is keeping me from trying out the ICU. At the hospital where I used to work I had to take a personality test, my results were in the middle with a slight tendency of being an analyzer...but in the ICU you don't always have time to analyze, you have to act quick. I often worry about legal issues because I've heard so many horror stories. Does this worry fade with more experience?
Also to give you more insight I am certified in BLS/ACLS, and I am very motivated, studious, and tend to get along with many different people, and always thinking ahead.
I am not happy with LTC or med/surg, definitely have not found my niche yet. I know I can't know for sure if ICU will be a fit for me and vice versa unless I try it. Anyone else ever have these feelings of apprehension? Any advice is greatly appreciated!