sheilagh

:yeah:This is me clapping for you to say thanks for all that you do,because above everything else it is obvious you have a huge heart and a nurse's soul. I know what I am gonna say will sound ludicrous in reality,but you need to set some boundaries. You are tired and burnt,but I don't think burnt out. I worked tele for 3 years and I do understand that as nurses,even with unions,a break or even 30 seconds to pee can be a luxury. I gave everything I had at work,and yes I left drained,but I always came in when called,and did my best I thought for patients. BUT WHAT ABOUT YOU?????? When you leave work,LEAVE WORK !!! If they try to call you in screen your calls. You may have to go so far as to speak directly with mgmt and say I don't want to lose my position,but we need to set ground rules about how much this place has control of my life. With so many different opportunities in nursing maybe a change of specialty is needed,or just a new place. Take up kickboxing,become a volunteer dog walker at a shelter,do something for yourself...if you are not whole as a person then how can you be a good nurse to your patients? I let it all go,nursing was my absolute life,and 6 years later I was doing enough demerol to knock out a linebacker ! I had lost myself,I pray that doesn't happen to you,because you seem like someone very special.!!! Sorry for the rambling,

Wow,where to begin! First off you are so full of anger and resentment,you need to talk with someone or share at a meeting and let it go,none of it will help in your recovery and it will absolutely hinder getting a job! IPN has tough rules and regs because we are ADDICTS and ALCOHOLICS that need some stability in early recovery,and more importantly because their reason for existence is to ensure public safety! Would you want a stoned/drunk/bipolar nurse who is not monitored taking care of a loved one??? And yes IPN will find out if you are working without permission and within a few days they get an emergency order to revoke or suspend your license....I know because I have done it! Told myself I needed the money,was totally not strong in my recovery,and by the second week at work I was grabbing the demerol....PARTY!!! That was until the cops showed up as I was being fired....oh and as my boss handed me the phone with IPN on it asking me what the hell I was doing working??? Just a suggestion,but do as they ask,jump thru the hoops,and see if along the way you don't find your sanity and a strong sobriety,which is totally worth it!~ Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk or vent...GOOD LUCK!!!

I know it's tough to come to grips with all that is coming down on you now, but one day at a time does help! Start the IPN process,get the eval,and be totally honest! Since you didn't divert you probably won't get a narcotic restriction,which makes finding work much easier! And I have met people in IPN with 2 or 3 year contracts, It depends on their use and circumstances. It will get better,and all is not lost. I will keep you in my prayers!

:yeah:CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! I know you will be great! And we are all here for you to vent to,cuz we don't work for you, so you can:devil::angryfire:devil: all ya want

When I worked Tele we had 5 nurses named sheila. We all had different spellings and such,but for overhead or when tracking us down,we had to come up with something,or 5 nurse Sheila's would answer every page! 1. I became "Irish"Sheilagh(I am and I look it) 2.Another became "Tall Sheila" because she was 3.The 3 other nurses were Indian,so they became sheila t. sheila m and sheila p Somedays I really miss all of them...

Wow..... I hadn't realized how much different these groups can be. I assumed it was a 12 step for healthcare professionals only,same as women only meetings. Thank you to all who posted,I will proceed carefully Sheilagh-taking one day at a time

That was an excellent article,their is so much to explore on this topic. I am bringing copies to my nursing support group,thank you for posting it!

I was just wondering,why do you do shifts as a C.N.A??? I am not trying to downplay the C.N.A's, was just curious why as an L.P.N you would do shifts for less money...???

Lol,all my mind kept thinking was... " EWWWWW,on the floor????":eek: A hospital floor is the last place I'd be hitting it, I don't care if Brad Pitt or Hugh Jackman wanted me! (If they do want me and happen to read this....call me! ) ;)Sigh

Smoker,Republican in views of financial government issues... But the government DOES NOT belong in my bedroom:angryfire Keep religion out of government separation of church and state sound familiar??? But it's said with lots of love and tolerance...:loveya:

:loveya:Sunny,I'm sending you lots of love and support. I well remember the utter terror you feel,OMG the world is crashing! You are alive,you have 2 kids who need a clean and sane mother. You have done the hardest,which is admitted you have a problem,look around,there is help. Call local health dept,they can make referrals. It's tougher with the kids,but even if you can get to a local NA meeting,there are resources,and you will feel better after having been there. There is hope,please don't give up! Anything at all,plz pm me or just ask this board, we try to help each other :loveya::loveya: Lots of love,:loveya::loveya: Sheilagh

Ok,I'll show my ignorance...beast with two backs??? I'm guessing that's a reference to sex,but one I have not heard before Sheepishly, Sheilagh

Yup,venipuncture is for me...I love IV starts and drawing blood...I will actually look in movies or if I'm out somewhere and notice veins. I'll be like,"Damn I could start him blindfolded!":yeah: Also love autopsies,the human body is amazing...GO Dr.Baden!:loveya: And my weirdest usually makes people laugh...I hate false teeth! HATE THEM ! HATE THEM! U can puke,poop,pee, or cough up a good phlegm ball on me,not a problem. But keep your teeth to yourself! And we're all odd ducks! Quack! Quack!

I love when these threads get started,they always give me a laugh! Scenario: Me as nursing student A.M care for resident with c-diff Learned quickly what c-diff was:imbar After cleaning her 6 times thought I was good to go Turned her to reposition in the bed Her buttocks were aimed at me,no undies at this point on pt Does the term "Mudmask" mean anything???? Instructor looks in from door "I guess I'll just bring lunch back for you" she says as she giggles down the hall But I got an A from her for pt care...think she just felt bad for me,lol.

Hey everyone! I do check in everyday,but don't post much because one of my many problems is making it about me,so didn't want to overtake the board,lol. Hopefully everyone is just busy working their recovery with outside sources,praying for no relapses!!! I send all my thoughts out to all who are suffering,hopefully they learn to take it one day at a time. Sheilagh