A very difficult decision

Hello, all I have a very difficult decision to make, well I've made my decision but would like to get different view points on my decision made. I can sometimes be blind to certain things and a different perspective would be nice. Well here goes.....(lol).

I have been working for a company for six years and they paid for my education which I am very thankful. I have been working nights since employed but work various shifts for them and even did doubles on the weekends for almost two years but felt like death and switched back to nights solely. I have charged on days and evenings and am charge on nights as well. I've had various medical issues since about three years ago and I've tried to resolve and had a surgery to correct it I had a parathyroidectomy due to tumors that where found. I have also had some cardiac issues as well which i thought was due to my whole parathyroid issues, but even with that resolved im still having cardiac issues along with that custody issues with my ex husband.

I have had a lot going on and really needed to change to days but been holding on. So recently I got hospitalized for abnormal EKG and my physician believes its night shift I'm not getting proper rest and just stress so they say. I use to work five nights straight and then changed that I just dont know what else to do and I don't even work 40hrs a week I've never have Well I asked my employer if possible can I switch to days if something is available. Well two weeks later it did so I had to put it in writing that I want the position so I did. Well they called me and said we got your note and your the only that has applied so far but we want to wait and see if any one else applies....😲

Then they called later that week and said two other nurses applied and they wanted to give me a interview this was my night off and I just got off smh. The other nurses that applied I had more seniority as well I was so annoyed and disappointed because the available cart was my own cart just a day shift position now mind you I've work this cart all shifts for six years and never interview for any other position.

It hurt my heart and so I applied for another position else where and didn't think I would get the job and did. My current employer is very upset and has threaten to sue me for the remaining time I owe them which is 7months. I agreed to work out a payment plan and they said no they want the money now...smh...that even hurt me as well. They then offered me a personal loan from them for the amount to pay them back I refused because that is senseless.

Then they said well work for us prn or partime we don't want to cause a financial burden on you. I agreed but then found out that this would be considered a conflict of interest for my new employer. I am so confused and frustrated because I can't stay there on nights I'm miserable and fear that it will only get worst, mentally, physically and emotionally.

I am a mother of two and am engaged to be married and just can't deal with nights anymore after a total of eight years I just can't. I've accepted the job and my last night at my current employer is tomorrow. I just don't want any hard feelings because I have enjoyed working here and love my residents this has been a very difficult decision for me, yet I have to what's best for me and my family.

I never wanted to break my commitment that I made to them but I'm exhausted. I also feel this new job is a once in a life time opportunity that I may never get again to move forward in nursing.I hope I am making the best decision possible. If you guys have any advice or words of wisdom it would be greatly appreciated. I thank you all for your time.😆