alright, i'll start this off by saying that i didn't start school until i was 21. i never wanted to go to school, and as soon as i turned 18 i left florida and went to live in a tent in skagway, ak. i came back to tallahassee, fl and started school only because my family did not approve of the "transient" lifestyle i was living. i worked at a gym making $14.20 an hour i personally loved it and haven't really been happy since. i came here to make minimum wage and i started going to school working towards an aa in anthropology - i love cultures, i love being outdoors, and if i could move to some remote island to study some remote tribe i would. after completing about 50% of the requirements towards my aa i decided that my dream job would not be feasible unless i got a masters degree. it made more sense to me at the time that i would be able to find a "real" job in the "real" world if i entered a specialized program, which brought me to nursing.
i do not want to be a nurse at all. i am not a people person, i do not want to take care of people, and i prefer to stay detached from society as much as possible, but the want to please my family overtook my own wants, as it seems to for a lot of people. last semester i did fine with three classes and ended my term with a 3.0 gpa. this semester i am taking anthropology & physiology, science of nutrition, psychology, and mathematics for liberal arts. i am doing fine in the math class, but everything else seems to steadily just flow downhill. i have not missed a single psychology class nor missed any assignments and haven't recieved anything less than a 75 on any assignments and somehow my grade only factors out to a 66%. in nutrition i have no idea what the eff is going on, i cannot seem to grasp anything no matter how much i study, how many practice quizzes i do, or how many stupid little flashcards i make myself - everything is to no avail and i have a 55% in that class. i don't even want to express what's going on in the anthropology class. it's embarrassing.
i know i'm smart, but i am incredibly discouraged. almost everyday i have to go have myself a good cry in the bathroom. i'm pretty sure my teachers all think i'm some depressive underachiever that doesn't deserve a second glance, i almost thoroughly believe this because none of them seem to want to spend time speaking with me after class and they rarely answer my emails.
it has also been made clear that if one does not make a c or higher in a class that they will not even be considered for the program if they apply. i can't cancel out a grade unless it's an f... so a d pretty much ensures that i'm working towards nothing.
so i guess my questions are should i quit now? does everyone who is a nurse want to be a nurse? does it get easier? and how do you tell your parents you're quitting their dream?!
that last one is just wishing for an easy button...
alright, i'll start this off by saying that i didn't start school until i was 21. i never wanted to go to school, and as soon as i turned 18 i left florida and went to live in a tent in skagway, ak. i came back to tallahassee, fl and started school only because my family did not approve of the "transient" lifestyle i was living. i worked at a gym making $14.20 an hour i personally loved it and haven't really been happy since. i came here to make minimum wage and i started going to school working towards an aa in anthropology - i love cultures, i love being outdoors, and if i could move to some remote island to study some remote tribe i would. after completing about 50% of the requirements towards my aa i decided that my dream job would not be feasible unless i got a masters degree. it made more sense to me at the time that i would be able to find a "real" job in the "real" world if i entered a specialized program, which brought me to nursing.
i do not want to be a nurse at all. i am not a people person, i do not want to take care of people, and i prefer to stay detached from society as much as possible, but the want to please my family overtook my own wants, as it seems to for a lot of people. last semester i did fine with three classes and ended my term with a 3.0 gpa. this semester i am taking anthropology & physiology, science of nutrition, psychology, and mathematics for liberal arts. i am doing fine in the math class, but everything else seems to steadily just flow downhill. i have not missed a single psychology class nor missed any assignments and haven't recieved anything less than a 75 on any assignments and somehow my grade only factors out to a 66%. in nutrition i have no idea what the eff is going on, i cannot seem to grasp anything no matter how much i study, how many practice quizzes i do, or how many stupid little flashcards i make myself - everything is to no avail and i have a 55% in that class. i don't even want to express what's going on in the anthropology class. it's embarrassing.
i know i'm smart, but i am incredibly discouraged. almost everyday i have to go have myself a good cry in the bathroom. i'm pretty sure my teachers all think i'm some depressive underachiever that doesn't deserve a second glance, i almost thoroughly believe this because none of them seem to want to spend time speaking with me after class and they rarely answer my emails.
it has also been made clear that if one does not make a c or higher in a class that they will not even be considered for the program if they apply. i can't cancel out a grade unless it's an f... so a d pretty much ensures that i'm working towards nothing.
so i guess my questions are should i quit now? does everyone who is a nurse want to be a nurse? does it get easier? and how do you tell your parents you're quitting their dream?!
that last one is just wishing for an easy button...
thank you!