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subee, I do not feel the program I was in was worthwhile. I was nothing more than a computer generated number.

So Today is my completion day, just tried to log into affinity account deactivated, case manager sent copy of completion letter to myself, my work and the BON! My license will be returned to normal status in a few weeks. Done Done and Done, I'm a free man again! I'm in shock!

Hey Y'all, Today is my completion day. Just logged in "Not Selected" for UA, case manager assured me, my case will be closed, TODAY!. I can wake up and not log in tomorrow morning. I'm just elated! Scheduled my first unmonitored vacation in 3 years, a chartered fishing trip with my son. Might be cold an rainy outside today, But its bright an sunny inside for me. Y'all keep swinging, you can win your fight for freedom too!

That's awesome, Happy for you! I've got 19 more days to go then freedom for me too.

I'll finish my sentence in Feb. I do the bare minimum, and stay off the radar. No intention of being associated with monitering. So ready to have my life back! Cheers Spanky, I'll probably toast my release also, but hide my keys. LOL

I'm in 3rd year TPAPN, and yes it is a step down year for me. My case manager informed me after about a month. No more AA logs, less UA's, I actually went 38 days without a UA, NICE! congrats to you.

Good for you! Enjoy yourself! I recently went to a week long (camping) music fest, never once "explained" about not drinking. I'd only say No Thanks, don't feel like it right now. 9th month and counting down for me ...Peace...

I've used whatever insect spray is available, never had a problem.

My heartfelt condolence goes out to you. You've taken a staggering blow! Believe you have the strength to get thru this, you will. Fare thee well... Peace...

I signed up for IOP (8 weeks program) 2 days after getting DWI. 8 month later when I knew what my court agreement was to be, I self reffered to TPAPN (Feb. 16). Only restriction, I couldn't do ON CALL. By May BON ordered me to TPAPN. Already in program. I have a incredible manager and friends at my workplace, so I was able to keep working thru this whole miserable process. In 2 years in I've never actually spoken to my case manager. I stay off the radar. Do everything spot on time, so they have no reason to question me. Feb. of 19, I will be free. You can do this! ...Peace...

Well Fiends, it's true. TPAPN does have a step down year (3rd and final). Seems I just received my letter stating I not longer have to submit a meeting report and will have "LESS UDS". One more step to freedom! ...Peace...

Yes there are lots of us that have stumbled! You are not alone. Feeling sick with worry, grief, embarrassment, (this list goes on and on), is just part of messing up. You'll need to focus on taking care of yourself, so you can deal with the legal issues as well as with the BON. I'm in monitoring for my 2nd time both for DWI (etoh). I was able to get a felony charge reduced, and go into TPAPN. Proof that it is possible. Your fight is just beginning, I really feel for you because the stress is overwhelming at times. For me I got good Lawyer, I self referred to TPAPN only when I knew I was pleading my case in court. Took 8 months, then reported to BON. Tough road ahead but you can succeed so don't give up hope. Lot of good support on this forum, keep posting, ...Peace

Hi Y'all, Seems like the days grind on and on, not much changes. Then theres a glimps of hope! Heres mine, I'm in month 26 of 36, counting down. This past week the only restriction I've had "No Call" was lifted, so I can walk a little taller with my peers. I got a raise, to my surprise. I also completed probation from my DWI. So to my brothers and sisters in monitoring land, keep grinding on your day is coming. My my the air just smells a little sweeter today! Peace

You don't owe anyone an excuse for not drinking. I only say no thanks I don't feel like it today.

Hey Y'all, just a heads up. Friday I was called to my clinical managers office to "Redo" my quarterly report. It seems the folks at TPAPN are changing their computer data base systems and some wrong information was inserted into my file. It was suggested I was giving misinformation. I brought in my file of documents to prove I have straight up been providing accurate information, (I save everything). It was agreed that I was playing by all the rules, it was a "TPAPN" problem. Keep your good eye open, and document everything! ...Peace...

Our greatest strength is in our determination to reclaim our lives, Good Job Spanky, keep swinging the fight is yours!

I also work in a hospital, have an incredible support network there.

A lot depends on WHY you were suspended. A call to your local BON office, or investigator if one is assigned to your case is in order. Often there are stipulations (Called a Board Order) attached to the suspension. Mine was to enroll in a monitoring program, (which I had been in for the previous 3 months,). That may guide you in your next steps. Most important is to take care of yourself. This kind of news comes with a great deal of stress, put your physical, emotional, spiritual health as a high priority. The BON is notoriously slow. Your not alone, a lot of us have walked in your shoes and have info to share. Take care...

I'd recommend you keep calling, these folks do not have your best interest at heart. I started TPAPN 2/16 self referral, all contracts signed by myself and employer. 5/16 BON decided to suspend my license until I was enrolled in TPAPN, even tho I had certified mailed all documentation to BON. I was never informed by BON of the suspension, it just appeared on the website (my manager and I were checking frequently) on a Friday, I was suspended on the previous Wednesday. Almost got fired for working with a suspended license. BON feels they are protecting the public ..... BS..... The fight is yours, keep swinging

1year+2weeks for me, off probation for my DWI next month will celebrate with a good meal I guess.

Interesting assortment of reply's, sober since 6/15, no need to search about alcohol ...Peace...

I logged into our forum this morning. One of the Ads that popped up on the right hand side was for "Appallation Sipping Cream" from Sugarland Distilling Co. Great Ad for a Nursing Recovery forum. Jeez!

Teaching yourself how to change your perspective and to be "your own best friend 1st" is a process. I work on it daily and learn new things daily. It comes from being aware of how you are truly treating yourself. examples being if I make a mistake instead of berating myself "Oh how could I be so stupid", try "oh I missed that, I'll make a note to self to watch a little closer" a simple change of perspective and how I choose to treat myself. You are right that PEOPLE look for the quick fix, instant gratification, not just addicts. Change is gradual. For me, I started by treating myself like I treat my patients! With kindness, respect, compassion that I need for my emotional well being. Now about meetings, they say take what you need and leave the rest. I take a little signature on my card, and leave the rest. I sit quietly in the back of the room and meditate. I tried being involved, sharing, sponsoring, didn't work for me, added stress I did not need for my emotional well being. When I've served my sentence I will not return to them. This works for me, hope you find what works for you. Peace

Hey, Many of us nurse's being monitored have walked the same path, so you are not alone. I found myself drowning in negative emotions at my low point. 3rd DWI, sitting in jail, thinking my life was over. I was choosing to look at myself from only a negative perspective directly related to bad choices I made using alcohol to try and drown out other negative emotions. Its a vicious cycle. I found tho that I do have a choice in changing my perspective of how I view myself and that has a direct effect on my emotional wellbeing. I chose to accept the fact that I really messed my life up, I looked in the mirror an told myself "I forgive you, I am here for you". I was feeling shame and guilt over what I had done yesterday, I could not change that. I had to let that go. I had to start looking at what I had TODAY, and focus on how I could make today a positive day in my life. There's plenty of folks out there in the monitoring program waiting in line to beat you up. You could try being your own best friend 1st, be kind to yourself, give that person in the mirror a big hub each morning. My words may sound a bit silly, but that's what helped me realize that I'm a really good person, with so much to give to this world. I started by changing my perspective, of how I was choosing to look at myself. Peace

OK, which number are y'all putting in as the COC #, 2 numbers at top of page, guy at lab said put them all in, did not work, 1 number does not change, 2nd number changes sequentially ? guess I put in 2nd numbers 2 days later, no lab results posted been over 2 weeks.