I too, usually do not comment on these boards, but I really felt compelled to reply to this one. I started my nursing career in a Subacute rehab wing of a LTC facility. I lasted three months. I then started on a med surg floor of a small community hospital. All the while I was dealing with my mother's terminal cancer and my own difficult pregnancy. I would have nightmares, sleeplessness, anxiety, and panic attacks. I would call the unit to check on so- and-so patient because I was so afraid I had made some error. This went on for the two years I worked there. The administration was notorious for "looking" for mistakes and repremanding and suspending nurses. Fortunately, in two years, I was only repremanded once by admin and once by a doc. But I lived in constant fear and would have SOB and crying fits prior to going into work each time. I moved to home health after the birth of my child and my symptoms improved, but I eventually left nursing for over ten years. I am finally returning as a volunteer nurse in a free clinic. I always thought it was just me, that I was not a good enough nurse, that I was weak and stupid. As a young nurse, I wish I had someone to mentor and support me. I felt like I was thrown to the wolves and I eventally became a "nurse casualty", one of those who chose to leave the field. I swore I would never work as a nurse again. You are not alone at all. I bet there are plenty of others who feel the same. In returning as a volunteer nurse, I have found a place where I am appreciated, supported and respected. Sorry if this is more like a confession than a response, but this is the first I have been able to admit to other nurses why I left nursing in the first place. I was embarrassed about my anxiety and thought it was just because I was inept as a nurse. I have finally come to terms with it and enjoying nursing again even though I do not get paid. I am a real, darn good nurse even if I don't have a W-2