Hang in there! I totally understand what you mean. I went thru the same thing when I started L&D a almost 2yrs ago. I was very excited to start working here, but I didn't understand a lot of the risks that come with this territory. I remember feeling like I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. I didn't want to go back to med-surg and I didn't wanna leave too soon. I had to face my fears. It was very overwhelming and scary learning all the new stuff. Once I started getting confident in myself, I felt like I could do anything. I can now say that I love and enjoy working L&D. I'm glad I stayed. It's definately not for everyone. I'd encourage you to hang in there for a little longer and see how you feel in 6months. It normally takes about a year to feel "comfortable" working L&D.