Thank you all so much for your words of encouragment and suggestions. Last Saturday one this nurses I was supposed to be orientating with called in, so I had to take the cart by myself. I was so nervous, but the charge nurse told me just to try my best and she was there to help me. I started the shift with 10! patients, and ended with 6. Not to sound cocky, but I amazed myself at how well I was able to handle it. I did have some questions, and I had to get other nurses to do my pushes, but all in all I think the day went pretty well. My charge nurse acually said that I was doing an exceptional job, considering this was my first day alone and the amount of volume we had in the hospital that day.
I am proud of myself and feel much more confident than ever. I am acually starting to feel like a nurse.
Thanks again to you all for the kind words.