never did like surprises.....

itsme · Oct 29, 2003

I hope everything will be ok. I will be thinking of you, and please keep us updated..

sjoe · Oct 29, 2003

Not really much point in worrying about "possibilities." It is possible that you, (or I, or all of us) have any number of diseases and problems that you/we don't know about yet, including those you mentioned. Worrying never has a shortage of raw material.

Cheerfully yours,

sjoe

SmilingBluEyes · Oct 29, 2003

while it may not help to worry, it is NOT abnormal or unusual. we are human after all. I send you best wishes and prayers that all will turn out ok for you. please let us know how things work out, OK???? HANG IN THERE and BE STRONG!!! you have my thoughts with you.

Tweety, BSN, RN · Oct 29, 2003

Best wishes! Waiting must be hard.

vemiliob · Oct 29, 2003

I remember myself two years ago passing through a similar situation while working at a small hospital's ER. I began experiencing weakness, nausea and swollen lymph glands.

One day the medical director looked at my eyes and after saying, "you must be very sick", ordered me to take an urine/blood analysis. The rest was a peregrination through different specialists, labs, echography, radiography and finally a tomography. At the end a mediastinum lymphoma was suspected. The specialist was strait-sincere to me while giving me a chest-tomography order. It was Friday, so I had to wait until Monday morning to know the results. You can image what was in my head and in my heart during that weekend. I was not afraid, I was just shocked. I passed my time slowly, close to my affections...

At the end of the process, a combination of stress and an Epstein barr virus was found.

What could I say to help it? Nurses behave sometimes as if we where immortal, omnipotent. Situations like these pull us down to reality and help us to become better human beings.

jnette, ASN, EMT-I · Oct 29, 2003

HUGS to you, Sanakruz. Please try not to dwell on the worst possible scenarios (yes, they DO cross the mind, but don't give them power, or they'll take control).

Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, my Friend. Do something NICE for yourself today. :kiss

Lecia · Oct 29, 2003

Wow... waiting is never easy, but it's that much harder when there are so many neg. poss. for your mind to wander to. Try to think good thoughts and let your friends here do the worrying for you.

I'll keep you in my prayers...

PennyLane, RN · Oct 29, 2003

I agree with the others. It's best not to dwell on the maybes. I once had a doctor told me she would "pray for me" because she was convinced I had Hodgkin's disease due to a lump on my neck (my sister had H.D.). Turned out to be nothing. But waiting for the results was awful. Do something nice for yourself in the meantime to get your mind off it. :kiss

kids · Oct 30, 2003

The waiting is awful.

If it is any comfort at all, I have had "spots' on my thyroid that have been biopsied several times, always benign. "They" have no idea why but I just get these "spots", have normal thyroid functions but feel much better on very low dose Synthroid (half a 50mcg tab every other day).

sanakruz, ADN · Oct 30, 2003

Thanks for the kind words all.

My sincere belief is I should always

strive to live until I die.I mean to do just that

mattsmom81 · Oct 30, 2003

I went through something very similar...but was rushed to surgery without biopsies because the docs were 99% sure it was cancer. It is very leveling to hear this. .

Mine turned out benign... I'm sending out good thoughts your way with hopes your tumor is benign is too. (((HUGS)))