I am a new grad RN (graduated May ‘19) and have been working at my current job as a floor nurse at a LTC/SNF for just about 4 months now. I absolutely hate it! I understand whatever area of nursing I get myself in to it will be stressful. I also understand that the first year of nursing is always the hardest... and to just give it time before I feel more comfortable and confident. But I’m starting to think it’s the job that’s giving me anxiety not being a new nurse overall! I feel very overwhelmed. I’ve been caring for a lot of residents (all on my own, I am the only floor nurse on my unit) my highest census being 27 at the moment. I am not comfortable with taking on that big responsibility... something goes wrong it’s MY license at risk.
I also feel as though LTC is not for me. I’ve done all my clinicals in a hospital setting so I feel I could benefit better from either a hospital setting or in a subacute setting. Geriatrics is not my issue, but when I’m the only nurse on the floor with help from only 2 CNA’s, it becomes very overwhelming to the point where I lose patience, I lose compassion and I just want to walk out and never come back. And people tell me once I lose the compassion, it’s nursing burnout. It’s very hard walking into work with a positive attitude but I really just hate my job. I hate the hours as well. The facility is very short handed and I find it very difficult to do my job. Most of my residents have end stage dementia, fall risks. About 95% of them have bed alarms and don’t understand their limitations. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve had to stop med pass to run down the hallway because there are bed alarms constantly going off. Or when I really need to concentrate while putting in doctor’s orders and I have to babysit my fall risks residents. It’s just too much and I feel like I’m not making progress here. Also all the RNs who work at the facility are supervisors, doing admissions and discharges. And LPNs work on the floor. I have yet to shadow an RN doing those tasks. I feel out of place and I feel taken advantage of.
I spoke with the corporate nurse at the company recently and expressed my desire to learn more RN tasks and to transfer to their sub acute facility for more acute care; where I have a smaller ratio, I work with other nurses on the floor. She said I wouldn’t be eligible for transfer until 6 months (March), but in the mean time she will try working on me getting some morning hours and working with the supervisors to learn more of the RN’s job and if I feel like a transfer is better suited for me come March, she'll "work out a transfer". I spoke to her almost 3 weeks ago, and securing morning hours, working alongside an RN has yet to happen. I’m trying to hold out until March, but I can’t depend nor trust the nurse to actually secure me a job there. She could have just been saying that to shut me up. Back in July, before my NCLEX, I applied for their subacute facility. I was told no full time positions were available there at the time. Hence why they transferred me to their LTC/SNF facility. The problem is, is that I worked for this particular company for over 8.5 years, so just walking away is difficult for me. And other facilities in my area are paying NO where near close to what I am currently making at my current job. So leaving would definitely result in a significant pay cut. But I don’t wait to wait around until March to be told there aren’t any positions for me at their sub acute facility, and I'm back at square one. I am starting to feel hopeless, depressed, and unsure of my abilities to handle the tasks of a nurse, and I don't know if I should just start looking now for a job, or stick this out to March if she can really work me out a transfer. She has told me that the company would not want to lose me as an employee, that I have great potential, but I also can't continue working at a facility that makes me feel this way. All in all, this is about what benefits me and my career, not what is best for the company!
Any opinions on what I should do? I have started a job search... hospitals, subacute facilities, outpatient centers like a physicians practice. This is just weighing heavily on me. It’s very important to me as a new nurse to make sure I’m comfortable in an environment where I feel like I’m learning and making progress as an RN. Any feedback would be appreciated!
I am a new grad RN (graduated May ‘19) and have been working at my current job as a floor nurse at a LTC/SNF for just about 4 months now. I absolutely hate it! I understand whatever area of nursing I get myself in to it will be stressful. I also understand that the first year of nursing is always the hardest... and to just give it time before I feel more comfortable and confident. But I’m starting to think it’s the job that’s giving me anxiety not being a new nurse overall! I feel very overwhelmed. I’ve been caring for a lot of residents (all on my own, I am the only floor nurse on my unit) my highest census being 27 at the moment. I am not comfortable with taking on that big responsibility... something goes wrong it’s MY license at risk.
I also feel as though LTC is not for me. I’ve done all my clinicals in a hospital setting so I feel I could benefit better from either a hospital setting or in a subacute setting. Geriatrics is not my issue, but when I’m the only nurse on the floor with help from only 2 CNA’s, it becomes very overwhelming to the point where I lose patience, I lose compassion and I just want to walk out and never come back. And people tell me once I lose the compassion, it’s nursing burnout. It’s very hard walking into work with a positive attitude but I really just hate my job. I hate the hours as well. The facility is very short handed and I find it very difficult to do my job. Most of my residents have end stage dementia, fall risks. About 95% of them have bed alarms and don’t understand their limitations. I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve had to stop med pass to run down the hallway because there are bed alarms constantly going off. Or when I really need to concentrate while putting in doctor’s orders and I have to babysit my fall risks residents. It’s just too much and I feel like I’m not making progress here. Also all the RNs who work at the facility are supervisors, doing admissions and discharges. And LPNs work on the floor. I have yet to shadow an RN doing those tasks. I feel out of place and I feel taken advantage of.
I spoke with the corporate nurse at the company recently and expressed my desire to learn more RN tasks and to transfer to their sub acute facility for more acute care; where I have a smaller ratio, I work with other nurses on the floor. She said I wouldn’t be eligible for transfer until 6 months (March), but in the mean time she will try working on me getting some morning hours and working with the supervisors to learn more of the RN’s job and if I feel like a transfer is better suited for me come March, she'll "work out a transfer". I spoke to her almost 3 weeks ago, and securing morning hours, working alongside an RN has yet to happen. I’m trying to hold out until March, but I can’t depend nor trust the nurse to actually secure me a job there. She could have just been saying that to shut me up. Back in July, before my NCLEX, I applied for their subacute facility. I was told no full time positions were available there at the time. Hence why they transferred me to their LTC/SNF facility. The problem is, is that I worked for this particular company for over 8.5 years, so just walking away is difficult for me. And other facilities in my area are paying NO where near close to what I am currently making at my current job. So leaving would definitely result in a significant pay cut. But I don’t wait to wait around until March to be told there aren’t any positions for me at their sub acute facility, and I'm back at square one. I am starting to feel hopeless, depressed, and unsure of my abilities to handle the tasks of a nurse, and I don't know if I should just start looking now for a job, or stick this out to March if she can really work me out a transfer. She has told me that the company would not want to lose me as an employee, that I have great potential, but I also can't continue working at a facility that makes me feel this way. All in all, this is about what benefits me and my career, not what is best for the company!
Any opinions on what I should do? I have started a job search... hospitals, subacute facilities, outpatient centers like a physicians practice. This is just weighing heavily on me. It’s very important to me as a new nurse to make sure I’m comfortable in an environment where I feel like I’m learning and making progress as an RN. Any feedback would be appreciated!