Hoping to get some support for my story. Please be kind because this involves the death of my mom. My mom had metastatic breast cancer for 3 years and passed away Apr. 2021. She was in the ICU, then admitted to a med/surg floor that also had hospice patients. I was so grateful the doctor agreed to admit her instead of sending her home because she was in a lot of pain. She was receiving IV Morphine. Her Morphine dose started at a low infusion rate. When she started vomiting and having more pain, I asked her nurse if she could have IV Ativan. The nurse agreed and gave her the Ativan by slow push. Immediately my mom fell asleep and was not responding much. I have so many mixed feelings about this. I wanted my mom to be comfortable but I did not expect the Ativan to make her fall asleep so quickly. But she needed the pain/anxiety relief.
So here is my issue. I worked in he NICU for 25 years and we pushed Ativan many times, slowly of course. I have never worked with adults, except with my mom and dad when they were very ill. The other day I was sharing my story about my mom to another nurse and she said "You don't push Ativan!!" She used to work in the ED. I was shocked and confused. I told her I have pushed Ativan many times in the NICU and so did my coworkers. I go back and forth between blaming myself for asking for the Ativan, which at first made me feel like I helped to end my mom's life. I know the cancer is what ended her life, but mentally I keep telling myself if we would have held off on the Ativan we could have talked to her longer. But she suffered for many months before she passed. So I am also glad the Ativan helped her comfort level. To all the nurses out there who work with adults: is it WRONG to push IV Ativan?? I just want to get some clarity. Sometimes it feels like she died yesterday. I am tired of beating myself up about Ativan. She knew she was passing, and I made sure she was clear that our goal was to keep her comfortable. thanks for reading.
Hoping to get some support for my story. Please be kind because this involves the death of my mom. My mom had metastatic breast cancer for 3 years and passed away Apr. 2021. She was in the ICU, then admitted to a med/surg floor that also had hospice patients. I was so grateful the doctor agreed to admit her instead of sending her home because she was in a lot of pain. She was receiving IV Morphine. Her Morphine dose started at a low infusion rate. When she started vomiting and having more pain, I asked her nurse if she could have IV Ativan. The nurse agreed and gave her the Ativan by slow push. Immediately my mom fell asleep and was not responding much. I have so many mixed feelings about this. I wanted my mom to be comfortable but I did not expect the Ativan to make her fall asleep so quickly. But she needed the pain/anxiety relief.
So here is my issue. I worked in he NICU for 25 years and we pushed Ativan many times, slowly of course. I have never worked with adults, except with my mom and dad when they were very ill. The other day I was sharing my story about my mom to another nurse and she said "You don't push Ativan!!" She used to work in the ED. I was shocked and confused. I told her I have pushed Ativan many times in the NICU and so did my coworkers. I go back and forth between blaming myself for asking for the Ativan, which at first made me feel like I helped to end my mom's life. I know the cancer is what ended her life, but mentally I keep telling myself if we would have held off on the Ativan we could have talked to her longer. But she suffered for many months before she passed. So I am also glad the Ativan helped her comfort level. To all the nurses out there who work with adults: is it WRONG to push IV Ativan?? I just want to get some clarity. Sometimes it feels like she died yesterday. I am tired of beating myself up about Ativan. She knew she was passing, and I made sure she was clear that our goal was to keep her comfortable. thanks for reading.