I am a relatively new nurse. Roughly working as an RN for two years. I had a Pediatric patient who had their chest emergently opened at the bedside post op. It was kind of chaotic- too many chiefs not enough Indians type of chaotic in my opinion. A co-worker handed me an open package- at the time OR nurses and techs are at the bedside setting up to open the chest. Package was open (I think- as long as I am recalling this correctly. There is definitely a chance it was closed and I opened it) so I reached inside, flipped it over and realized it was a blue cloth. I said wait “what are you handing me- I touched this” at this point I think everyone’s adrenaline was pumping and I’m not sure if she heard me to which she said something about handing it to OR. I believe I then said said something again to the effect of “what are you handing me?” And someone else just chimes in and said hand it to the OR tech. At the time I was in the middle of a couple of different things as well as having two of the docs talking to me as we are watching the patient decompensate. I handed off the package and went back to what I was in the middle of doing- sending off labs I believe and getting a set up for cardiac lines. I cannot Begin to tell you how Much It has been eating me up that I probably ruined sterility going into a patients chest but also that this patient may have an SSI or worse outcome because I didn’t keep a cool head, clarify and speak up. I had over heard someone say “she put her hand on it, the girl” while I was with docs inside the patient room. I’m am holding Onto hope that Someone else witnessed it and kept it from touching anything else. Also I would hope if someone raised that concern they would have gotten a new set up started... but it was an emergency. patient is receiving post-op antibiotics, I believe ancef, Vanc and maybe cefepime?
my dilemma and concerns are:
1)patient outcome and safety. I am sick to my stomach that I didn’t take a step back and push for more clarification in the chaos. I am so worried about this little human
2) gossip- always. Where I work gossip about other nurses, their mistakes/oversights and spreading negativity is rampant. I’m fearful that I am now the topic of conversation and the new unit pariah that no one will trust with sick patients.
I am conflicted and I feel so incredibly guilty. Do I say something? Do I let it be? I am so so worried about this patient, that they’ll now get an SSI or worse. I’m also already pretty self conscious at my job because of it being more of a gossipy environment. This experience just makes me feel awful and guilty to begin with but the added stress of the dynamic on the floor makes me begin to worry even more. I don’t want to be thought less of or not respected. It’s definitely a mistake I will not be repeating
Hello,
I am a relatively new nurse. Roughly working as an RN for two years. I had a Pediatric patient who had their chest emergently opened at the bedside post op. It was kind of chaotic- too many chiefs not enough Indians type of chaotic in my opinion. A co-worker handed me an open package- at the time OR nurses and techs are at the bedside setting up to open the chest. Package was open (I think- as long as I am recalling this correctly. There is definitely a chance it was closed and I opened it) so I reached inside, flipped it over and realized it was a blue cloth. I said wait “what are you handing me- I touched this” at this point I think everyone’s adrenaline was pumping and I’m not sure if she heard me to which she said something about handing it to OR. I believe I then said said something again to the effect of “what are you handing me?” And someone else just chimes in and said hand it to the OR tech. At the time I was in the middle of a couple of different things as well as having two of the docs talking to me as we are watching the patient decompensate. I handed off the package and went back to what I was in the middle of doing- sending off labs I believe and getting a set up for cardiac lines. I cannot Begin to tell you how Much It has been eating me up that I probably ruined sterility going into a patients chest but also that this patient may have an SSI or worse outcome because I didn’t keep a cool head, clarify and speak up. I had over heard someone say “she put her hand on it, the girl” while I was with docs inside the patient room. I’m am holding Onto hope that Someone else witnessed it and kept it from touching anything else. Also I would hope if someone raised that concern they would have gotten a new set up started... but it was an emergency. patient is receiving post-op antibiotics, I believe ancef, Vanc and maybe cefepime?
my dilemma and concerns are:
1)patient outcome and safety. I am sick to my stomach that I didn’t take a step back and push for more clarification in the chaos. I am so worried about this little human
2) gossip- always. Where I work gossip about other nurses, their mistakes/oversights and spreading negativity is rampant. I’m fearful that I am now the topic of conversation and the new unit pariah that no one will trust with sick patients.
I am conflicted and I feel so incredibly guilty. Do I say something? Do I let it be? I am so so worried about this patient, that they’ll now get an SSI or worse. I’m also already pretty self conscious at my job because of it being more of a gossipy environment. This experience just makes me feel awful and guilty to begin with but the added stress of the dynamic on the floor makes me begin to worry even more. I don’t want to be thought less of or not respected. It’s definitely a mistake I will not be repeating