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This is my story.

I've been on All Nurses for a few years now and I've always had one goal: to become a RN. That goal has not changed. Over the past three years of schooling, I have been through many hurdles. After all the hard work I went through to get through my pre requisites, I was so excited to finally be able to even apply to nursing programs. A year later, I had gotten about eight rejection letters. Eight. Each one made me feel like I was never gonna get that one letter that started with " congratulations.."! I thought those letters meant that I was never gonna be a nurse. With each rejection letter, I cried. I felt sorry for myself and I questioned my career path and maybe that this wasn't what I was meant to do with my life. But I soldiered on! Last year I finally received my acceptance letter! I was ecstatic, I finally felt like things were falling into place. I was in a RN program, I was engaged and to be married the next year; it just felt right. But things didn't end up right at all. The weekend before I started nursing school, my fiancé wanted to go out. I obliged and that night he convinced me to smoke marijuana for the first time. That was the biggest mistake of my life. The first day of nursing school, we got drug tested. I tested positive for THC. It is my own fault completely. My family kicked me out, and my and my fiancé broke up. My whole life fell to pieces. Literally. I enrolled in different classes, but my heart wasn't in them. I didn't finish them and my GPA dropped. I've been slowly picking up the pieces of my life. It's been hard, but I'm doing it. It's taken me a whole year to get back here on AN because I'm scared to want to want so badly. I want this so badly. To help others. I truly feel like this is my calling. I'm restarting my classes in the fall, and I'm gonna get myself back on the right track. I just wanted to share my story and to tell everyone to me we give up. I haven't and neither should you. We can do this!

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    I'm so sorry about the peer pressure. I hope you can get back into the nursing program. Sometimes we all make mistake, we can only learn from them. I have a panic disorder and I take a benzo for it, which I know will show up in the drug test. I have already talked to the school and they said it is fine as long as I bring documentation about it. I was so scared that this would not let me in the program, but I got the courage to call ahead of time so I can make sure I have everything for that drug test. Good luck to you.

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    To NOT give up***

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    Kayruhh, I remember last year when this happen for you. I am so sorry things got so crazy, but it sounds like you learned from your mistakes (which is the best way to handle things). I wish you lots of good luck!

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    I remember you! We were all completely in shock by all that took place so early into your nursing school career!

    I'm so glad you came back to update, and I'm even more glad you've found your way back to the path you deserve to be on. Anyone who has had the pleasure of growing up has made mistakes, had their life seemingly fall apart, thought all was lost. The beauty is that those things pass, we learn a few things, and we're stronger for them. I'm sure you learned a lot about yourself and the people you keep close to you through all of this.

    Anyway, I just wanted to say GOOD LUCK to you! I'm still cheering for ya :-)

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    I remember you! We were all completely in shock by all that took place so early into your nursing school career!

    I'm so glad you came back to update, and I'm even more glad you've found your way back to the path you deserve to be on. Anyone who has had the pleasure of growing up has made mistakes, had their life seemingly fall apart, thought all was lost. The beauty is that those things pass, we learn a few things, and we're stronger for them. I'm sure you learned a lot about yourself and the people you keep close to you through all of this.

    Anyway, I just wanted to say GOOD LUCK to you! I'm still cheering for ya :-)

    Yes! Hi!:) haha. Thank you so much! I'm transferring to a university and I'm gonna try to go for my BSN! I'm very excited about refocusing my energies on this! Glad to be back on the boards! How are things with you?:)

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    Kayruhh I remember last year when this happen for you. I am so sorry things got so crazy, but it sounds like you learned from your mistakes (which is the best way to handle things). I wish you lots of good luck![/quote']

    I definitely learned from my mistakes! Thank you so much!!! It means a lot!

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    Best wishes to you! Remember that the diversity of membership here means that even if you fall and do things you aren't proud of, another member has been through same or similar so don't feel ashamed and just tune out the negative stuff. ♥ ps you are probably better off without somebody who would convince you to partake and break up with you when you suffered the consequences of that.

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    One day we will all laugh at the time when marijuana was the "Evil Drug".

    As for now just remember the time when it was widely held that black people were an inferior group of people and there fore did not constitute the same rights as white men.

    We should all laugh at the time when women were denied the right to vote because society believed women would find politics too complex and hurt their pretty little brains.

    One day you too will laugh at the absurd amount of stress this event has caused you. There are clear skies ahead my friend.

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    Speak it girlfriend! We all make mistakes. It's how and if we overcome them.

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    I can not tell y'all how much I appreciate all the responses. After everything that happened I just wanted to give up completely! It's taken me a while to accept the consequences of my actions, but now I see that that was a bump in the road and someday I will be a nurse! Thanks a million to all the wonderful people here on AN!☺☺☺☺

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    I remember you from last year, glad to see that you are back on AN. We all make mistakes in life, it's up to the person to learn and make better choices in life. I know you really want to be a nurse because you haven't given up, you got that drive and determination. Just remember temporary setbacks equal better comebacks. I truly wish you the best in your nursing journey.

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