You're probably going to see red and holler at me when you read this, like you did to Libby, but oh well. Being holistic is my job as a nurse, right?? So that's what I'm going to do :) Personally, in your original post, it sounded like you had an anxiety problem (like I, myself do). I was so scared that I was going to harm a patient that I refused to apply at a hospital until I had a year of experience elsewhere. Then I only applied at a "crappy" hospital. After a year there, I finally applied and got hired at a beautiful, newer hospital that I never want to leave! You know what helped me get to that place of confidence in my career? Treatment! I was in counseling for a couple other things (childhood crap), but she severely helped me get over my self doubt and anxiety. I also started Lexapro about a year ago. That was a game changer for me. I was never depressed, only EXTREMELY anxious. The Lexapro calmed me down and I don't constantly feel on edge anymore. My anxiety is very appropriate now. So, there is my concern with your original post. Now onto your response that I quoted here^^^. I am greatly concerned with how defensive you sounded in your response to Libby's suggestion. "Treatment", in any fashion, is not a bad thing, yet you seem to have a very negative view on it. As a nurse, we are supposed to care for people physically, mentally, and emotionally. "Treatment", whether with therapy and/or medications, is treating people mentally and emotionally, and ultimately physically, isn't it? We all know that data shows that stress leads to heart attacks and stress. So what is wrong with treatment? I sure hope that you don't talk to your patients about treatment (therapy or meds) in that sense. You would be denying them from fantastic resources that they could greatly benefit from. And that YOU could benefit from. So I am going to reiterate what Libby said. I strongly suggest getting treatment. Maybe from different avenues. And there is nothing wrong with getting that help. You'll be a better nurse because your self doubt and anxiety will fade away, which will ultimately make you a better nurse. No one wants a nurse full of anxiety and angst. Good luck to you, Jack.