OP, I echo what a previous poster said: I think it might be time to get your anxiety under control. That doesn't mean you couldn't be a great nurse though! It sounds like you are smart and have some insight. Nursing needs smart, humble people. On the other hand, I will offer that you're going to have to "wipe butts" and that is a hugely important part of nursing. Good skin care and pressure ulcer prevention is essential. I have cared for patients who became septic from infected ulcers, and sadly one of them died. Perhaps being a pharmacist would be more up your alley. Less direct care, still beneficial patient care. Good luck to you! I'm sure everything will work out for you in the end.