I agree, do what you think will make you feel best, afterall you are the one who has to live with yourself. Everyone has different things that drive them. I guess my post made me sound hardened and jaded, but as terrible as it seems, after 12 yrs in healthcare a certain amt of that takes place, and you realize it is not your responsibility to save everyone because it is impopssible to do or they refuse to be saved. Then again maybe its just me, maybe I'm the cold hearted nurse no one will want to work with when I'm near retirement lol. You truely seem like a pt advocate...so, again do what makes YOU feel best. Best Wishes!