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The problem is obvious: too many patients per provider: Doctor, Nurse, CNA, etc. The solution is simple: hire more staff and assign less patients per provider. Where do we get the money for this? Um, Hospitals are FOR PROFIT, take it out of the profit. There is no reason Travel Nurses should be getting paid 5 or 10 times the amount as a Staff Nurse when they could have hired 5 more Nurses and 10 more CNAS INSTEAD OF HIRING 1 TRAVEL NURSE! When a house's support beams and wood skeleton start breaking one by one you don't just paint the wood a new coat of paint do you? No, you replace that wood with new wood and more more to keep the house from collapsing in on itself. I do care how much I get paid, but you CAN NOT pay me to do a job that is IMPOSSIBLE for 1 person to do on a daily basis: 9-15 patients a CNA is common yet people only listen when the Nurses start walking out. But without CNAs THERE IS NO HOSPITAL.

I had some questions. I'm planning to in the future about 10 or so years from now moving somewhere extremely rural and building a Homestead, after getting my BSN and some years of traveling and marriage, and live on it with other married Christian couples in a community style living raising 5 children for each couple most of them adopted. Homesteading pretty much means living on a farm without needing any supplies or contact with the outside world. However I was thinking of also working within about 1 hour driving distance working in a nearby small rural town under an MD or DO in a small outpatient clinic (with the possibility that this MD or DO will also be one the parents on our Homestead to provide care for all of us there especially the many children) that also provides Home Health Care to the entire small town rural community which may be spread out among the wilderness or closer in town or in inbetween parts. I've considered becoing a Doctor in the past but God led me to Nursing and I plan on staying in this field. I love to learn and provide as much care as I am able to and legally allowed to. I also love spending 3-4 hours a day with 1 patient taking care of them usually long term, perhaps people won't need me me every week in this kind of job and that's OK but there's no way I'm ever seeing 12 patients every hour in 1 day for a 12 hour shift. With the Homestead with wife and kids I don't plan to be working more than 6-7 hours a day 5 days a week. I can't deny my hunger for more medical knowledge however I'm under no delusion that no matter how much education I get in Nursing I will never be equal in education to a Medical Doctor or Doctor of Osteopathy and I am comfortable with that. I am not going to try to be something I am not. My main question is: do you think it is possible to do all of this and have a DNP working under a MD or DO? I will not make diagnoses (but will recommend them to my Doctor), I will not prescribe medications (but will of course recommend them to my Doctor), and although I probably will make House Calls alone I will stay within communication with my Doctor and follow his Lead about everything (he may let me make some decisions on my own, but I will of course chart everything and bring it to his clinic for his review). I don't mind being a Nurse Practitioner or whatever else title I can get with a DNP but I really prefer to do all the above and I love working bedside handson with no task beneath me and since will be Rural Nursing I don't expect I will have any Nurses or Aides under me to do the things like the occasional toileting and bathing and changing wound dressings in addition to exams and administering medicine. Basically I love Nursing I just like expanding my medical knowledge over the years, but my idea of Nursing is not much different than my idea of being a Doctor: working at the bedside of people to take care of them as much as we are educated and legally allowed to do, with the main difference being Doctors having more of a leadership role and far more years of education than a Nurse.

Just because I prefer not to take care of certain types of difficult patients does not make me any less compassionate. Compassion is not the same as capability. I have met people in my life I was unable to take care of because I simply was not qualified to take care of them no matter how much I wanted to and tried. There is a reason Patients with diagnosed Mental Illnesses are supposed to be in a separate unit in the hospital. You can't treat them like any other patient and not everyone can handle regular interaction with these kinds of patients. You reply seems to deny these facts.

I never expected to get supposedly treated differently because I'm a Man by the patients. I've worked with Patients both in Home Health Care and in a Nursing Home that other people have said screamed at others of the female gender. In 1 case I'm not sure if the Female CNA was just too sensitive or just flat out lying just because she didn't want to change a black man screaming in pain as he poops a hard poop in his diaper. The other case I think the patient had a hard time with people in general because he spoke in a blunt way without manners mixed with some cuss words but he wasn't a jerk, he just got mad when people ignored his wishes when they claimed they were hired to help him in his home. I got along with both these men and others who were very good to me, but apparently had "behavior problems" with other workers. I must have been doing something right. I had no idea these men had "behaviour problems" with other staff until after some time of working with them.

You have to look at this from a realistic point of view: You're used to caring for 1 Patient for 12 Hours right? That means they were probably very acute needing skilled Nursing for a long time per day. That gives you alot of experience working 1 on 1 with acute patients. In most in patient places you will be given 5 or more patients and you'll not have time to do everything for them all so some Nurses hate it because they feel they didn't go to school just to be pill pushers as they mostly just give medications. Depending on the unit, you could also assist in the OR, be a Wound Care Nurse, work in the chaos and fast paced and sometimes deadly world of ER, or you could go into the careful slow quiet extremely detailed and sometimes intense world of 1-2 patient ICU. If you want to develop your skills from a Facility point of view and you can handle that your patients might die once in awhile: I extremely recommend applying for the Intensive Care Units in Hospitals. ICUs are unique from all other parts of any hospital because Nurses are usually given 1-2 patients each. This is where patients go once they are stable enough to not immediately die transferred from the Emergency Room often without much info gathered by the Nurses working the ER because they often simply don't have the time to get any other info than what is needed to keep them alive in that moment. The patients are stable but often not well enough to speak or walk as they may be often times be sedated (something to keep in mind if you value talking to your patients, they may be able to hear you but they often won't be able to talk back to you or communicate but remember even patients in comas may be able to hear you). They often have lots of tubes in them all over their bodies and are hooked up to all kinds of electronic machines. This environment is not a rushed one, but the complete opposite of The ER. Simce Nurses often get 1 or 2 patients they may have their own often used Rooms that they setup before the patient gets there. Nurses here have more control more so than anywhere else in the Hospital because unlike most other places that split the medical from the ADL care giving Nurses charge ovet Medical Care and us CNAs over ADLs, here in the ICU Nurses sometimes don't even HAVE CNAs so Nurses may do NEARLY EVERYTHING for their patients including turning them, bathing them, changing their diapers if they have one or emptying their bags, doing wound care, and administering medications. However there is far more interactions with other Health Care Professionals than there is with the patient themselves at least when it comes to actual talking. They will sometimes bring Student Doctors in to watch and learn if your hospital is a teaching Hospital. Of course the family will visit the patient, highly emotional at times. Depending on your shift and the availability of your Doctor you may have standing orders given so you don't need a Doctors written order to give certain medications if you know how to recognize when the patient needs them. You have to almost constantly monitor the patient, because keep in mind that something going wrong with their condition can lead them Coding really fast, which means while it won't happen as often as THE ER you'll have to be prepared to give Emergency Care and bring this person back from the edge of death if you can. And everything has to charted hourly or every 2 hours leading to alot of paperwork for each patient, this is why Nurses have to at least be present from even ADL changes they MIGHT have a CNA DO that they must SEE and CHART. While I have never worked in a ICU, based on my research it seems to me to be the closest I could get to resemble Home Health Care in a Hospital. This is quiet, calm, careful, calculated, slow, extremely detailed and analyzed, occasionally fast, and sometimes highly emotional environment. The hours Nurses may CHOOSE are 12 Hour shifts because they may like having that much time to do all they need to to give care to the patient. Patients may be in the ICU anywhere from a days to weeks or even a month. However, if a family can afford it sometimes similar work can be done at home for a patient. Which is something I want to look into as a future RN who prefers the restaurant Healthcare that is Home Health Care as opposed to the fastfood Healthcare that is Hospital and Nursing Homes.

I'm very simple, God showed me he is real and I followed him and read his Word The Holy Bible ever since. I put him and his Word as authority above everything and sometimes I find the churches and Pastors and even people who call themselves Christians seem to ignore much of what The Holy Bible says and do whatever they want and claim God is pleased with their minimal and often self serving efforts. 2 Timothy 4 English Standard Version Paul to Timothy, "1I charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who is to judge the living and the dead, and by his appearing and his kingdom: 2preach the word; be ready in season and out of season; reprove, rebuke, and exhort, with complete patience and teaching. 3For the time is coming when people will not endure sound teaching, but having itching ears they will accumulate for themselves teachers to suit their own passions, 4and will turn away from listening to the truth and wander off into myths. 5As for you, always be sober-minded, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, fulfill your ministry." I don't follow what's popular, Jesus wasn't, I follow the truth and I make no apologies for it. Sometimes or often that ends up making me mostly alone. Which is how Jesus was treated near the end of his life on Earth.

I worked in Home Health Care for 2 years in Hawaii and now I live in California and recently got my CNA Certification. I tried working in a Nursing Home, but I just couldn't care for the amount of patients they gave me. I'm now going back into the Home Health Care field, but I'm finding it extremely difficult to find opportunities to get hired as a CNA. It's not like I'm trained to do much else than what I did already do as a Home Health Aide before but I would like to use the Certification I spent time and money into to get. I also want to become a RN and I want to learn more about medically skilled care especially those given in Home Health Care as I see a possible future for me working in Home Health Care Nursing as I love being able to focus on 1 patient for hours and not just do medical related things but also take care of their other needs to in a Holistic way.

I'm not a Nurse, but currently a California Certified Nurse Aide. Before I became a CNA, a few years ago I worked in Home Health Care in Hawaii as a Home Health Care Aide that didn't require me to have any license or registration. The company I worked for just required I have my CPR and First Aide Certifications. I did that for 2 years and I loved that, but God was calling me to do more and so now I aim to become a Registered Nurse. CNA School was good, but my eyes have recently become open to what it means to be a CNA for most places hiring. I worked for 5 days in a Post Acute Facility some might call it a Long Term Care Facility or Skilled Nursing Facility or Nursing Home. 4 Days were orientation where I didn't have my own Patients and the 5th day I finally had my own Patients: 8 + 1 another CNA had abandoned. 3 were mostly independent. 5 needed their diapers changed. I only changed 2 diapers while trying to meet everyone else's needs to. The only reason they all got changed was, because 1 LVN, 1 PT, and 2 other CNAs helped me. An 8 hour shift turned into 10 hours. This shift started in the morning. 1 of my patients the LVN showed me had developed a skin issue because they were not changed soon enough. I realized things would be worse and even though I might have help (not always) I couldn't do this job on my own that I signed up for. So I quit. I did alot more research after that and realized that that facility for AM shift gave 9 patients per CNA which is the lowest amount I have yet to learn any facility give. On average Hospitals give 12-15 patients per 1 CNA (these are sicker to and require more care) and Nursing Homes can give the same amount or even higher depending on your shift: Overnight shift gets about 2x the amount of Morning shift and Late Afternoon to Early Evening Shift get somewhere inbetween. It's an entirely different world and mindset and focus than Home Health Care. Inpatient Care outside of Home Health Care is all about numbers and money. They give every Health Caregiver from Doctors to Nurses to Nurses Aides far more patients than they can realistically give full proper quality care to. It's simple logical business ethics that put profits first and product quality last. However in this case the product is Health Care. The less staff you have the less you have to pay, plus the more patients you have the more money you make, and this equation equals maximum profits. The results are alot of patients who are not having all their needs met, they are mostly kept barely alive and largely ignored the rest of the time. There are often some patients who lay in their own feces and urine regularly simply because their CNA does not have the time to change them. Patients who do get changed are often ignored because other than feeding, changing diapers, bathing, and keeping them breathing CNAs just don't have the time to do much else. I would say based off my research in terms of equating amount of patients with difficulty, Home Health is Easiest, Outpatient Clinics are Harder, Hospitals are Much Harder, and Nursing Homes or Post Acute Facilities are the Hardest. The Health Care was broken by evil business administration that puts profits first and Health Care last. Doctors sometimes kill themselves, Nurses sometimes quit, and CNAs have borderline PTSD. Read God's Hotel by Doctor Victoria Sweet to open your eyes to how things used to be and how things are now to see the sheer horror that is American Modern Health Care Administration. This is the world you're going into as you leave Home Health Care and go into Hospital or Skilled Nursing Facility work. Tread lightly. I don't know much about what Nurses go through, but to give you an idea: in the Post Acute Facility I worked at a Nurse was the manager of the entire facility, we did have I think at least 1 Doctor on site, which had over 100 patients while LVNS each got 1 hallway: each hallway had about 5 or more rooms on each side, each room had usually 3 patients in it, that's 30 or more patients per LVN. They seemed often busy doing charting and other paperwork or non-direct hands Nursing while the other times they simply gave Medications. If they were nice and made the time they might help change a diaper. We had dedicated Woundcare Nurses and Physical Therapists so a general LVN didn't do those things I think.

Alot of the church of Christ everywhere need psychology help and to read their bibles, because they think if they ignore COVID19 it will go away. Ironically this idea didn't originate from a place of true faith but from political devotion to a Flawed Man Republican named Trump who many Christians seem to think is the next Jesus. Jesus isn't Repbulican or Democratic, he is a King in a Kingdom it is a Monarchy. And Jesus tells us to sacrifice ourselves if it will help others, not about "our rights". This isn't up for debate. No matter how much we argue COVID19 will still spread by people who don't wear masks, this scientific fact.

Agreed 100%. I do not like the pope or alot of the practices of Catholicism. But one my good friends is a Catholic and we agree on the core Gospel of Christ and I am glad the Catholics as an organization at least are encouraging support of the fight against COVID19.

Matthew 7 Jesus said, 1“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. 2For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. 3“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye." 1 Corinthians 5: Paul said, "11 But now I am writing to you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother if he is guilty of sexual immorality or greed, or is an idolater, reviler, drunkard, or swindler—not even to eat with such a one. 12 For what have I to do with judging outsiders? Is it not those inside the church whom you are to judge? 13 God judges those outside. “Purge the evil person from among you.” We are called to judge within the church, but not to do so hypocratically. I can't judge my brother and tell him of his sin if I am caught up in the same sin. People who don't fully read their bibles will often just go with whatever makes them "feel good", that's not what the Bible teaches nor is it the Gospel. Through Jesus yes we have the forgiveness of our sins but we are also called to hold each other accountable and encourage one another to lives without sin. There is a great difference between someone who struggles not to sin and someone who has fully embraced their sins and refuses to turn away from them. To find out which we are called to first walk the right way and then we can discern who is who. Then help our brothers and sisters in walking the right way and correct those who think they know Jesus but only know what they've been told and haven't read for themselves.

I have high metabolism, skinny and boney, might have Celiac Disease and IBS (in the process of being tested), am vegetarian, and I try to live Zero-Waste (only recycle or compost, never trash), how do I build just enough muscle and some fat to cover my boney ribs that stick out? I don't eat meat, one reason is that I live in the city and it comes in dispoable plastic packaging this also rules out most kinds of non-fresh foods. Possible Celiac rules out bread and pasta. Possible IBS rules out raw foods and pastries. I mostly buy fresh loose vegetables, fruits, and grains at the grocery stores. I will also buy things in recyclable or compostable packaging (this rules out most cereals and even things in boxes often coming in plastic bags inside the boxes). I found 1 brand of cheese in recyclable packaging: Stater Bros. I try not to eat any ice cream, pastries, etc. as I think something in their long list of ingredients is irritating my bowels. I'm not lactose intolerant, but whole non-organic milk gives me bad gas, but Costco Organic Whole Milk Irritates me but Organic Valley Milk doesn't. I'm experimenting with 1% fat Organic Circle Milk.

I've made my concerns known to one of the Elders who said he'd bring it up next staff meeting but nothing changed. Denominations are selfish cliques that shouldn't exist like Paul says in 1 Corinthians 1. I am a child of God YahWeh and a follower of Jesus The Christ. The world calls me a Christian ("mini-Christ") which I also use to call myself and others. I stick to The Holy Bible above all else and live my life by it according to what I know and understand which is alot more than most western Christians are willing to do for their "make me feel good about myself" hungry culture. I'm not sure what denomination the church I go to is, but based on some of their teachings and government I would say leaning towards Penecostal or Charismatic although their core is pretty soild and they don't preach a "you'll be rich with money if..." message.

COVID19 has proven to kill people and one of the FIRST 10 commandments is "Do not murder". But the 2nd Greatest commandment is to "Love your neighbor as yourself." Anyone who chooses to come to church without a mask or takes it off at any time is dangerously close to causing serious potentially fatal injury to someone. So most definitely YES to having people removed for refusing to wear a mask in church. Just like they did in the stores in 2020. I'd seriously question validity of someone's claim to being well-informed loving humble unselfish Christian if they refused to get vaccinated and wear a mask.

What's even worse is other Christians, not me!, claiming "it isn't real" or just something the government made up to control us more and "shut our faith down", I'm living proof this isn't true when can do just about everything we did before COVID19 with masks on except maybe not hug or touch or talk so close so much as we used to. The worst though is claiming that people dying of COVID19 is no different than the Flu like it's no big deal and we shouldn't do anything to help stop it spreading. That's like the same attitude the stubborn people who refused to visit prisoners or sick people, feed hungry people, clothe naked people, etc. and yet claimed to follow Jesus and do mighty things in his name which Jesus compared to stubborn goats and he told them to leave him and never knew them as they were workers of evil and he sent them to the judgement they deserved all of this he speaks about in The Gospel of Matthew Chapter 25 and he added this, "Whatever you did to the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did to me." He was talking about the church, but the same principle applies to everyone as we are supposed to love people as we would ourselves not just do whatever is convenient for us.

Now I know I may seem like a unicorn, I certaintly feel rare and often rejected by society as actually being real, but believe it or not I am a Christian, I am a CNA, I social distance, I wear a mask, I got vaccinated long before it was required (hoping to get my booster ASAP), I am NOT a Republican OR a Democrat (Trump or Obama is NOT my God), I am registered to vote, I support and respect The Police while also supporting greater accountability for them, and I believe as Martin Luther King Jr. put it, "I have a dream one day that my children will not be judged by the color of their, but by the content of their character." All that being said, the church God lead me to treats COVID19 like it doesn't exist or that it has no power "if your faith is strong enough" while not outright said in those exact words there exists this attitude and similar encouragement to ignore COVID19 and social distancing. While I do believe faith can enable us to do and make anything happen, The Holy Bible talks about 1 time the devil tempted Jesus by telling him to throw himself off a cliff because in the Psalms it does say that God will protect us who believe in him and follow him, but Jesus's answer was, "It is written, "Do not test the Lord your God."" He knew the path God had for him and God would protect him, but he refused to try to kill himself for no reason other than to test whether or not God would protect him. If Jesus himself wouldn't test God his own Father, neither should we who claim to follow Jesus Christ. In addition, there are plenty of other good reasons to support the fight against COVID19. It's just been hard to go to this church and see almost everyone ignoring the existence of it. They trrat it like Jesus who touched the Leper and instead of catching Leprosy he healed him. However, in The Holy Bible in the 1st letter written to the Corinthians by Paul a follower of Jesus chosen by him personally wrote in chapter 12 this question: "Do all have gifts of healing?" In a series of questions about each person in the family of Christ meaning all believers all have different gifts but we need each other in just like a body that needs all it's parts working together with Jesus as the head. To walk around expecting COVID19 not to touch them is just not supported by our own book by God. Still I go to this church even though they have these problems and other doctrinal problems to. I think perhaps to be a good example for them to follow. Whenever I go out in public I wear a half-face respirator with Organic Gas filters and a face shield. I also wear to church every time a shirt that jas the word Jesus in a fish shape right above a sign of a surgical mask and under that a red cross connected to a heartbeat connected to a heart. Pictures below. My question is: are there any Christians here who can relate to me with difficulties with your church and have you seen any churches that actually properly follow and enforce good social distancing such as: 1. Everyone must wear a mask properly over nose and mouth, especially while talking. 2. Sanitize hands often. 3. Everyone must remain 6 feet apart at least even though they wear a mask, this means every 2 or 3 seats are off limits unless you came as a family (friends you bring don't count). 4. Everyone on stage must wear a mask, especially the singers, preachers, speakers, Elders, and Overseers (Pastors), because they need to set the example as scientifically proven by a study I recently learned of: singing and yelling can make your breath water droplets travel up to 27 feet and linger in the air. 5. All staff and official volunteers must be fully vaccinated and tested for COVID19 every week. 6. Upon every entrance and exit every person's temperature is checked and they are asked the standard COVID19 questions they would ask at Hospitals. 7. Security is hired to enforce all rules including removing anyone who refuses to put their mask back on or stay 6 feet apart when asked. 8. Finally: messages about COVID19 related news are read every church gathering aling with prayers following then a brief encouragement to support our local Healthcare Heroes putting their lives down on the line to protect our country especially our vulnerable loved ones from this invisible enemy. This sounds like a dream come true kind of church. Anyone ever found one like this?

You are welcome. I can say many things about myself because I do not have what other people think I should have as a barrier to this kind of behavior. I never learned to develop this barrier growing up as I never bothered to invest much time into socializing once I hit puberty. Analysis of this indicates that this is likely a learned psychological defense mechanism many people develop to protect themselves from other people using knowledge about themselves to hurt them. Trust takes time to build. Their lack of trust allows for their fear to motivate them to develop this kind of barrier most likely. However, while it does take time for people to earn my trust as well and it does still hurt if they use the information about me to harm me I still refuse to be so afraid to of this that I would refuse to share any or most information about myself. I have come to learn that all relationships involve the risk of pain and the greater the trust the greater the harm someone can do me however trust is built over time as they prove this is something they will NOT do. So I put my own information out there about myself to people as I think they need to hear it in order to help them either online or in person and I make myself vulnerable and willing to get hurt, because sometimes it's important people know things about you so they can relate to you and feel like they're not alone in whatever trouble in life they are going through. If you can learn this lesson and how to listen and treat people according the kind of individual that they are then this will help you alot in all your interactions with your fellow Humans especially teenagers in Pediatrics as many are struggling with discovering their own identities as well as the meaning of life and other deep philosophical questions.

Don't listen to these kinds of people. There's always someone out there who pop their head in and instead of giving any advice will just tell you to quit and give up on the nursing or medical field. Honestly, this needs to stop, you're (SmilingBluEyes) not helping, we need all the help in the Healthcare Field we can get especially at the CNA level. I'm glad I came across this thread as I was wondering the same thing about wearing a respirator to work and I am a CNA aiming to get my ADRN then BSRN. Ultimately you, OP, have to discuss this with your managers or even go above their rank to their managers or even higher if you can't get any results. If you are tested weekly for COVID19 and found negative they shouldn't have any problem with you wearing your own half face respirator that doesn't filter exhalation as long as it is a verifiable approved model with approved filters. However you never know until you speak up at work to your managers and sometimes you have to go to their managers until you get a result.

I know most Women in general like to wear their masks and costumes (makeup and sexy clothes as most women's clothing is designed to be sexy) most of the time especially in public, but some really step it up during this time of the year! Like Werewolves and Vampires, etc. (I prefer the full wolf face over a "sexy werewolf" face) As for myself, I'm not sure what I'll do this year. It depends if I can get a job before the end of the month! I might still have my Werewolf Mask lying around here somewhere! I already got the lumberjack long sleeve button up shirt! But I DO have a scrub top printed just for Halloween!

Hello. I can't tell you my real name, because I must keep the rules of this website. However I can tell you to call me FlameHeart. I am a Man, 31 years old, Single, and Christian. My mom suspected I may have Asperger's, a mild form of high-functioning Autism, but I have never been officially diagnosed with such a condition. It is true I do not think like most people and I am happy about that. I grew up very sheltered spending most of my time in my room, alone, happy with my video games, internet, movies, tv, and books. Most of my few friends growing up were only at elementary school or college, I didn't have any friends in middle school, went into homeschooling half the time, and I was only in highschool for half a year before being homeschooled until I got my GED. Hitting puberty and questioning reality after seeing The Martix was a big factor in changing the way I thought and being unable to connect with people my own age in the way that I thought made me not interested in them, occasionally the teachers were easier to talk to. Please forgive me for not using proper grammer in my paragraph structures, I break up my collection of words more frequently in order to make them eaiser to read for most people, unlike me, do not like reading large collections of words even if they are properly constructed according to the rules of English. I myself dislike reading large collections of words without good structure. Getting back to my background: it wasn't until I moved to Hawaii on my own at 25 years old as an independent adult Man permanently on his own away from parents that a series of events led to God revealing himself to me and confirming that he exists independently of anyone's beliefs but I got to know who he truly is only through The Holy Bible and Jesus The Christ. Since then my understanding of reality is defined by him and his book The Holy Bible. I think because of my own unique way of thinking that changed over the years growing up, my rejection of how other people think, always seeking to prove everything not just accepting whatever I'm told by anyone, and my inexperience with socializing with people has led many people even to this day not understand me very well thinking I may be annoying or weird or even autistic or germaphobic. But that doesn't upset me, because I know who and what I am and who God has made me into and is making me into being. I don't live to make everyone happy or pleased, only God. That being said I do care about people with an enormous amount of compassion and love and kindness and patience and anything else I need that I must ask for and must be refilled with every day by God or else I literally run out of. I am very intelligent, I think far more than I speak even I though I speak more than most people, I notice details, I look at most things around me when I am not thinking too much in my own head, I have learned alot and remember alot and understand alot of things. 1 person thinks I should be a RN instead of a CNA, because the way that I am. I will be, but not yet. It will take me about 5 years to get my ADRN while getting my Musical Theatre Degree to as I will not give up a part of myself just to focus on Nursing. I treat everything I do seriously, regardless of pay. I am honorable, loyal, honest, respectful, and I follow all laws and rules I know and understand and have agreed to follow. This includes being a born citizen of this country, a member of this state and county, a CNA, etc. because I am an honest person and I do what I know and understand to be right regardless of who is watching me. I wouldn't feel right about myself if I didn't. I am the kind of person who will attempt to read all or most of everything I sign every time, unless it says "I have read ALL of this and I agree to it." then I HAVE TO read all of something before I sign it, otherwise I would be lying. I am the kind of person who will report myself if I know I did something is explicitly against the rules I agreed to follow. What is right and what is wrong is clearly defined, known, and understood by our creator God, his book The Holy Bible, our country's government, our local government, the licenses we carry, and the places we work at. All in that specific order of ranking and importance. Morality does not change at the highest level of God and his book and it is not up to debate or interpretation. Many of our government laws are the same way except when they are changed due to legal process and must be interpreted and judged on a case by case basis according to a Judge in a court. As individuals we have various feelings about many things, but our feelings do not change what is right or what is wrong. But there exceptions some laws make in regards to how they are followed based on the case by case situation. People establish their own set of "rules" in addition to the above and often they vary based on the person. Every person is different with many factors that contribute to this such as their age and it can get easier to interact with them based on common factors across large groups such as their age, stage in life, level of maturity, their religion, their romantic life, etc. I see people as a learning experience like taking a class in school. It's true math is much easier for me as it is simpler than learning about people and how to interact with them, but I still find people fascinating, some groups more so than others like children as I want to be Father one day and I just love children. I say all of this because my background, the way my mind works, and I how I feel about certain things is all relevant to showing you I can relate to you and understand you better than some people can. My advice is to treat each person as a learning experience like you are in a classroom. No 2 people are like, yes we can assume some things and treat them accordingly based off certain factors like their age or social group as a starting point, but as long as you adapt to each person as you learn about you will be most likely loved by them. This is because while we all have some things in common, we also are all different in many ways and we each want to be learned and known as the unique individuals that we are. When people take the time and consideration to do this and to treat us accordingly with respect to this these are the kinds of people that often become our friends.

That being said, I do not wish to continue to talk about religion anymore so I will not respond to any more posts abiut religion as I have said all that I wanted to say and I have been as respectful, kind, and polite as I could be. If anyone else would like to post please do so about anything other than religion.

It is never right when a Christian tries to force someone to believe in Jesus. If they said what they believe and the patient rejected it or asked them to stop then they shouldn't bring it up again. Even Jesus had this attitude and approach, he didn't go chasing after people who came to him and after hearing what he had to say, they left, he let them go. This is my way of doing things to. I bring it up and if they tell me to stop, I respect their wishes and don't bring it up. Everyone has a faith or philosophy of some kind that's important to them that they sometimes feel the need to tell others, but no matter what we do we can't force our beliefs or philosophies on each other but we can speak about them and if either of us don't wish to continue the conversation then we should respect each other's wishes as fellow Human beings.

Love you. I'll pray for you. No need to be hateful, but that's your choice. I've never raised my hand to a patient but you would physically assault me (spit counts as assault) for words? And I'm the one with the problems? I don't think so, if you are secure in your own self and beliefs you would not care what I say. They're just words. If I ever took care of you and you made it clear to me that you didn't want to hear about Jesus, then I wouldn't speak to you about him and I would still take care of you the best I could the way a friend would. Much love fellow Human.

I called and asked about shadowing and they're not doing that right now. I did apply for Progressive Care Units and ICUs as a CNA, but also in the Neonatal ICU as a Instrument and Equipment Aide which requires no experience so I mostly might get that job before I do the other positions. Working with babies I think would be easier as they are innocent and I don't need to tell them about Jesus, I know babies die sometimes in the ICU but I am comforted knowing they are all going straight back to God.

Thank you. Some people get so offended when they hear "Jesus" or "God". Look we're all adults here, we can choose listen or not listen, sick or dying or not. The first patient I ever got paid for died as Agnostic as far as I know although we had many good talks about Jesus. His death tortured me until after much prayer God told me "He made his choice." and God gave me peace after that. We do what we can to spread the truth, but everyone has the choice to either accept it or refuse it and they are the ones who will pay the price their decisions. I always bring up Jesus when a patient is going to die or sometimes the conversation just leads into that because of who I am, but I am always a friend to people and it devastates me when they die not knowing Jesus because I know ehere they're going but they died knowing me as a good friend who went above and beyond what I was paid to do for them because I not just their Caregiver, I am their friend.